le dix fevrier duex mille quatre
dont exactly know whjy the date is in french but it says febuary 10th 2004 if you couldnt figure it out.. nothing really happened today. there hasnt been much to do.. been on the computer almost all day.. i have an infection in my torso somewhere so some organ will oribably explode knowing my luck. heh oh well. whatever. it just got kind acold in the house.. maybe thers ghosts floatng aorund anyways.. school was well school.. im not sadly depressed anymore but i am still sad when i thnk about it.. i try nto to think about jjuan but its hard.. he meant a lot to me.. we still tal on the phoen once in awhile when he actually calls me but we dont get ot have to much of a conversation because well i dont know.. we cant really talk to eachother now that we arent together.. its weird i dont know.. he still want sot talk to my dad about being together even though we broke up.. i dont get it.. i guess its a guy thing.. i respect his respect for my dad but still i dont know.. at points on the phone its like we are going out and at points it doesnt and at the points it doesnt i usually cry and he yells at me to stop crying.. and yatah yatah.. we need to talk about it but im afraid to bring up the subject.. maybehell do it for me.. i dont know.. i highly doubt it though.. well otehr thnan sitting at the computer all day i put up an away message got offline and watche dmost of x2 then came downstairs and got back on and well ive been here since.. i dont have alife anymroe.. when single i dont have a life.. its just a thing.. not my fault.. paul just kind astopped hanging out wiht me and im not aloud to hang out with amber or amanda or anything so ya kow its not cool.. well i dont know.. i have to go i need ideas on what to by guys for valentines day.. if you are a guy let me know what you would want and stuff.. girls what would you get a guy?? even if its as jsut a friend..