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[cowboyrider33]

I'm at Tech and I like it for the most part....except the whole being dissed by this guy that I liked. I don't know why I can't get over it...but I just KNOW that there is something that isn't right with him ditching me. Cuz he's not like other guys who just want some booty.....he pulls the hair away from my face, he kisses me on the forehead and

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[neilythic]

Well, Cat, since no one else seems to be leaping forward to comfort you, perhaps it falls to me. First of all, as I mentioned the other evening, don't diss the kids in the Industrial Forestry Operations section. They're nice, SWEET, earnest, connected young fellas, and (in my observation) NEED what you've got. Sit in for one of Doc Walbridge's roadbuilding seminars, while you're at it. He's a legend, and at 89, he won't be coasting along as an emeritus a whole lot longer.

Well, I know what you're feeling on the score of Isn't there anyone who is serious and emotionally constant in a way that's meaningful to me? Well, I'm 51, and while you're seeing it (I venture) from the insecure point of one who isn't exactly sure where she might stand in the emotional marketplace, one in my position is concerned about whether I'll run out of opportunities to find out, before the year arrives when I'm too muich of a dodderer to care about such things. Chin up, Kid. We both need to take a long view. Your desires are not unreasonable and do not contain inherent contradictions, as they do for so many young women, who cannot love without despising themselves for having needs, or who confuse the excitement of conquest with the sustained comfort of possession.

Run. Row. Write poetry--or inspire it. I've met you. You're full of all sorts of exciting and intriguing tropes, and while you are just the sort of challenge that will intimidate some men, and fail to appeal to certain needs, there's much more of the other running through you, and ultimately your bigger challenge will be, not rejection, but sorting out the sincere offers. You will be bewildered by mixed signals--which need not lead you to conclude that you, yourself, are conflicted but that you may be more complex and nuanced than you first appeared to that inexperienced young blade who seemed committed to you. You'll learn to read what's going on, even if the pattern seems, to you, to be endlessly recurring.

Gotta say, too, Cat, that the fellow you can venture to advise you which frats to avoid has much too detached a view of you to be worth keeping around, anyway. If he was ready to declare himself to you, he would be advising you away from ALL frats and keeping you for himself and himself alone. (Frats are dull, dense testosterone clinics for insecure, herding cyphers, anyway--no place for a goddess with a vision to ruminate.)

Wenn ich nur eine Bedingung wagen duerfe--dass du in Strophen komponiertest; es kommt uns schwierig vor, so einen Wasserfall von ununterbrechlichen Wortstroemungen durchzufahren. Schmerzen--also gut--aber desto besser fuer uns Mitteilende wenn geordnet.

Neil