birfday...
So..today is my birthday..things have been all right for most of the day...things have been very random latley....between somehow finding myself in woonsocket randomly getting a new tattoo...just life in general...so here are some thoughts...
Life is tough, but someone always has it tougher, like todd...that threw me for a loop...he has a tumor on his brain stem...it will kill him within a year if he doesn't get it removed and the surgery only has a 5% survival rate...he's taking it like a champ...
Mom...is always drunk...and it makes me sad...
Nana...i don't know what to say here..i was glad i got to see her two weekends in a row...she had her lung surgery...she has to live w/oxygen attached to her now for probably the rest of her life...which is sad..but tonight...man...uncle mike hit her twice...i want to hurt him soo bad..i can't believe he did that after all she has ever done for him...took him in when he had no where else to go..i swear if i get a shot at him...im gonna hurt him...she was crying tonight..for obvious reason...she said to me she wants to move away..to a place where no one knows her...i asked if i could come too...and she just said yes profusly and said she would like that....at least we have each other...family...i wish she didn't have to go through all of this stupid crap...she doesn't deserve it...
Farrah sent me the sweetest card for v-day...it got here early, and i didn't know i wasn't supose to open it...i did anyways...because i couldn't help myself! :-D...I wont say what she wrote, because it was personal...but she poured her heart out in it..and it was the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me...its reasons like that and her almost driving down here to see me tonight that know that she is a true keeper...and she waited for me 6hrs two weeks ago..that ment alot to me...she hated it...and hopefully won't have to do anything like that again...but i'v spent most of my life waiting for women...to either mature, get the picture...ur just wait..iv been stood up and locked out (emotionaly)...but she was willing to wait...i think that was again...one of the most greatest things ever....although allie let me borrow her car to drive down to see her...thats up there..but not quite matching a six hour wait in a borring study room....if it wasn't for her nights like tonight would probably take years off my life..like they used to do...when i would get so sad and just cry myself to sleep..at least i see know there is a chance...a chance for happiness....to maybe start a family that isn't like mine...and i like having that hope....she is truley a blessing in my life!
Life is tough, but someone always has it tougher, like todd...that threw me for a loop...he has a tumor on his brain stem...it will kill him within a year if he doesn't get it removed and the surgery only has a 5% survival rate...he's taking it like a champ...
Mom...is always drunk...and it makes me sad...
Nana...i don't know what to say here..i was glad i got to see her two weekends in a row...she had her lung surgery...she has to live w/oxygen attached to her now for probably the rest of her life...which is sad..but tonight...man...uncle mike hit her twice...i want to hurt him soo bad..i can't believe he did that after all she has ever done for him...took him in when he had no where else to go..i swear if i get a shot at him...im gonna hurt him...she was crying tonight..for obvious reason...she said to me she wants to move away..to a place where no one knows her...i asked if i could come too...and she just said yes profusly and said she would like that....at least we have each other...family...i wish she didn't have to go through all of this stupid crap...she doesn't deserve it...
Farrah sent me the sweetest card for v-day...it got here early, and i didn't know i wasn't supose to open it...i did anyways...because i couldn't help myself! :-D...I wont say what she wrote, because it was personal...but she poured her heart out in it..and it was the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me...its reasons like that and her almost driving down here to see me tonight that know that she is a true keeper...and she waited for me 6hrs two weeks ago..that ment alot to me...she hated it...and hopefully won't have to do anything like that again...but i'v spent most of my life waiting for women...to either mature, get the picture...ur just wait..iv been stood up and locked out (emotionaly)...but she was willing to wait...i think that was again...one of the most greatest things ever....although allie let me borrow her car to drive down to see her...thats up there..but not quite matching a six hour wait in a borring study room....if it wasn't for her nights like tonight would probably take years off my life..like they used to do...when i would get so sad and just cry myself to sleep..at least i see know there is a chance...a chance for happiness....to maybe start a family that isn't like mine...and i like having that hope....she is truley a blessing in my life!