yay!!! friday at last!!!!
ok well today was an ok day i guess...but i went to the doctors and they told me i have depression...yay great fun...i get to take medication now...and i have a sinus infection and my asmha is killing me...yay im having fun already....but anyways for somereason when i came back to school i just felt like i loved everyone...and i told them i just went up to all of my friends and gave them hugs and told them how much i love them...it was great...but ya i think its because my friendskeep dropping like flies...ok well my friend crystal did like a year and a half ago....my BEST friend stephanie moved....my other really good friend brianna moved to south carolina....and most of my other really close friends moved to different school because they were getting in too much trouble....and now my friend shelby got told on too a dean that she was smoking weed at school....and she wasnt her friend had it on her and some guys wanted to buy it and she said no...so they told....and shelby got scared so she confessed and she was guilty by assosiation...which is soooo not cool....but ya she got suspended for 3 days and her mom wont let her come back to landmark or have any friends from landmark or even step outside to check the mail....she is on lock down Big time....and shelby is the kind of person that cuts herself and i am sooooo scared what she might do...because she is only aloud to talk to her b/f brian and he said that shes cutting herself again....and i am really worried i love her sooo much and i dont know how i will be able to handle another loss....its going to kill me eventually...but for now i will be strong and live it through because i have WAY too much to live for.....like my friends and i mean all of them i love them all sooo much most have been more family to me them my actual family....and i have to stay here to take care of my mom i lover her way too much to leave her here alone...and my sister mary told me that i am the most special thing to her....so you know what i am going to stay just so she can stay happy too....i love you mary and i know we argue sometimes but you have been nothing but great to me and you are always there when i need to talk....and i dont think you understand how much i love you and need you in my life.....and you too jesse i love talking to you and just sitting around being stupid like we ar...lol.....but ya ok im done sorry had a moment there...ok im back now...anyways...back to my good day....i got to eat lunch with my mommy...it was great fun...we went to subway and i saw the pastor from my church it was cool...ok well hey my mom just came in and told me to get off because we are going out to eat dinner...welli guess i will talk to all of you laters.
and one more thing I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!
ok im done now....i hope you all have a great day :)