ma soeur
last monday my sister came home from college for thanksgiving, and i really missed her and of course wanted her to come home and everything and it was fun, but although she was only here for a week, she managed to get on my nerves like 5 out of the 7 days she was here. When i was growing up, of course my sister was always around, and to me it always seemed like she was the favorite. my parents made her a baby book and not me, they threw her birthday parties when she was little and not me etc. I always thought that maybe i was just crazy and they dont have favorites, and im just making all of it up, but i was soon to be proven wrong. Ever since she came home, my parents practically worship her, and i go unnoticed, which isnt all bad, but i would like at least to be acknowledged. i think the reason this kills me, is because although my sister does all these things while she's in college that my parents get really pissed about, like falling over and chipping your teeth when you're drink from a frat party and not taking responsibility for it, getting less than impressive grades, along with several other things, yet they still worship her like a greek goddess, while im left eating her dust, it simply isnt fair. I dont go to parties, i dont get in trouble at school or anywhere for that matter, i get better grades, i dont drink, im not wild, yet i still get the raw end of the deal.
Everything she says is always better than what i have to say, not just with my parents but with my extended family as well. If we both make a suggestion, hers is always readily followed, and mine igonored. Maybe that's why im so bitter when she's around...but can you blame me? it's hard to be so chipper when you're comstantly being shot down time and time again. unfortunately i spent a large part of this weekend crying alone in my room because of this. I feel bad for my parents who i guess dont realize that they are totally scarring me emotionally lol. i know what you're gonna say " why dont you talk to the about it! im sure they'll try and fix it!" well you obviously dont have a sibling, because it's hard for a parent to admit that they play favorites, even when it's as obvious as in my case.
Yes, i'll admit, that im jealous of the attention she gets, but who wouldnt be? a parent's love is something worth fighting for...
Everything she says is always better than what i have to say, not just with my parents but with my extended family as well. If we both make a suggestion, hers is always readily followed, and mine igonored. Maybe that's why im so bitter when she's around...but can you blame me? it's hard to be so chipper when you're comstantly being shot down time and time again. unfortunately i spent a large part of this weekend crying alone in my room because of this. I feel bad for my parents who i guess dont realize that they are totally scarring me emotionally lol. i know what you're gonna say " why dont you talk to the about it! im sure they'll try and fix it!" well you obviously dont have a sibling, because it's hard for a parent to admit that they play favorites, even when it's as obvious as in my case.
Yes, i'll admit, that im jealous of the attention she gets, but who wouldnt be? a parent's love is something worth fighting for...