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ok so i cant sleep so i'll write more. I was just reveiwing my week well past 2 weeks actually. Quite a lot has been going on. Well I got a job at comcast, quit my old job, broke up with kenny, started looking for apartments and yes and have been told by everyone lately. " you know you look really good"
I must be giving off happy vibes or something I dont know what it is. I feel so much different now, even my sister commeneted she was like " I have never seen you like this, not in your whole life" and shes been there for 17 years of so its more than half. I have made some changes i've been wanting to make and I feel good about them, im actually doing things making decisions based soley on my opinion and not having the usualy back chatter of other peopel trying to fill my head with thier bullshit.
I like it. i can say that with some confidence.
I just feel different, I was telling my uncle Bruce about things and he was cracking up he was like "wow you cut all the bullshit out didnt you"
"yes, yes I did". I just I dont know, i think I hit a wall with the how much shit I can take from peopel and other such things recently. I had some time to think and make some decisions I came to the conclusion that where I was was not where I wanted to be so, Take all the surrounding factors in my current situation. relationships, jobs, housing. was is what i really wanted. no. so I had to change things. I did. A lot of them.
It made me feel better at least I'm attempting to better things. I have school figured out now. I dont feel as anxiety ridden about everything.
Its a nice change.
I hope I dont damage it.
I must be giving off happy vibes or something I dont know what it is. I feel so much different now, even my sister commeneted she was like " I have never seen you like this, not in your whole life" and shes been there for 17 years of so its more than half. I have made some changes i've been wanting to make and I feel good about them, im actually doing things making decisions based soley on my opinion and not having the usualy back chatter of other peopel trying to fill my head with thier bullshit.
I like it. i can say that with some confidence.
I just feel different, I was telling my uncle Bruce about things and he was cracking up he was like "wow you cut all the bullshit out didnt you"
"yes, yes I did". I just I dont know, i think I hit a wall with the how much shit I can take from peopel and other such things recently. I had some time to think and make some decisions I came to the conclusion that where I was was not where I wanted to be so, Take all the surrounding factors in my current situation. relationships, jobs, housing. was is what i really wanted. no. so I had to change things. I did. A lot of them.
It made me feel better at least I'm attempting to better things. I have school figured out now. I dont feel as anxiety ridden about everything.
Its a nice change.
I hope I dont damage it.