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i was looking forward to working today, and then my bro said he was sick so i was stuck watching him. i decided to clean up the band room, organize it a little bit and pick up my room and sort my clothes. our septic tank is fucked up right now so any time i want to do laundry i have to go to the laundromat,surrounded by a bunch of mexicans. i have no problem with them, but damn this is america speak english. this weekend was pretty fun. lately ive been trying to keep myself occupied, so i dont think about jay, and things are getting better, yet everytime i see her she always looks depressed, or like something is wrong. really im not trying to be a dick about it, but shes the one who broke up with me, so shouldn't she be the one who's at ease? it sucks that a year and a half went by and that we are not together anymore, but shit happens for a reason. i tryed to be the best girlfriend i could to her, and to make her happy, but things went downhill i guess. i start college today, im excited but at the same time im not. and i hate being lonely i really do. i love being able to cuddle,hug, and just hold and kiss someone. makes me happy. im trying to lose weight and its working out pretty good, i was thinking maybe ill start going to the gym a couple nights a week with my mom or something, spend time with her. i have alot of leg muscle and arm muscle but im still chubby. im also thinking maybe this weekend ill go get some work done (tattoo)im not sure yet though, i'd have to call joe and set up an apt. it was pretty fun hanging out with the vero crowd.kry,sam,lauren,jessi, and even trish. they're very upbeat and out going. last night i kept waking up, like i had maybe a total of 3 hours of sleep. i kept waking up thinking i was going to be late to work, because we didnt go to sleep until like 2. i think i am going to go write a new song now or something. it codys computer is not in the bandroom because i want to record, but oh well. i should consider investing in a permanent computer for the band room.anyhoooo im out like a fat kid in dodgeball. <3