here's my HEART!!!!!!!!
Everyday I wake up and the first thing I think about is you. The thought of will I ever be good enough? Will I ever be able to say the right thing? Will you ever be as excited to see me as I am you?
I wake up and realize...I may never be good enough.
Not just for you but for anyone, not just as a lover but good enough as a friend for anyone. I go to sleep at night in tears of the fear that I will fail, as a daughter, a friend, and an employee. I fear that I will one day wake up and it'll all be gone, it'll all be taken away.
I wake up every morning wondering what I might do wrong or what I will fail at today. I wake up hoping that my friends are still there.
I wake up and hope that my parents truely love me. That my parents are proud of me. That my friends will still be there because they love me for me.
I walk through the day in fear that something I say or do will drive my friends or family away. I walk through the day in hopes that where ever im headed won't be the last place I go.
I live day to day in fear that one day I will be alone.
I live day to day wondering why the friends I used to have aren't there anymore.
Somedays I wonder if im even good enough or if I'll ever be good enough for you, my friends or my family.
I cry at night and I lie awake at night hoping for the best and that one day someone will care for me as much as I know I can care for them.
I miss you and I love you and I hope that one day.......
I wake up and realize...I may never be good enough.
Not just for you but for anyone, not just as a lover but good enough as a friend for anyone. I go to sleep at night in tears of the fear that I will fail, as a daughter, a friend, and an employee. I fear that I will one day wake up and it'll all be gone, it'll all be taken away.
I wake up every morning wondering what I might do wrong or what I will fail at today. I wake up hoping that my friends are still there.
I wake up and hope that my parents truely love me. That my parents are proud of me. That my friends will still be there because they love me for me.
I walk through the day in fear that something I say or do will drive my friends or family away. I walk through the day in hopes that where ever im headed won't be the last place I go.
I live day to day in fear that one day I will be alone.
I live day to day wondering why the friends I used to have aren't there anymore.
Somedays I wonder if im even good enough or if I'll ever be good enough for you, my friends or my family.
I cry at night and I lie awake at night hoping for the best and that one day someone will care for me as much as I know I can care for them.
I miss you and I love you and I hope that one day.......