Back from the Dead.
So I know I haven't been on here in a long time. I kinda forget that this thing exists because I have my blogger account which I kinda like better even though the features aren't as good as on here. Anyways, since the last time I wrote in here, things are starting to look up quite a bit. I still hate my cell phone with a passion, and I'm thinking about getting a different one that I may be more inclined to actually turn on, plus I've just been using the house phone anyways, all things considered, it's free.
I've adjusted to living back in Kingman without my family and living with my boyfriend. It was pretty weird at first, especially with dealing with his family and his little sister. Thanksgiving and Christmas were okay, sucked a little not being with my family, cried a little, but it happens.
I've come to realize that my relationship isn't perfect. I guess in my head I used to have this preconceived idea that if a relationship is perfect you'll always get along and never fight, and that usually if I was liking someone and things started getting "if'y" I'd just run away. I've actually rode everything out with this one and I'm such a better place for it. If we fight, we work it out, I've stopped hiding and running, and in the end of it all, we usually end up closer than we were before. I've gotten past the "i'm older and he's younger" thing that I had going on, and just embrace the fact that he acts older than me and actually understands me.
The "I've come to realize" survey.
1. I've come to realize that, my ex:
-- will always be a giant geek.
2. I've come to realize that, I talk:
-- over everyone else...no thanks to our family's version of Survival of the Fittest.
3. I've come to realize that, I love:
-- my boyfriend in a way I never thought I could love anyone.
4. I've come to realize that, I have:
-- some of the greatest parents...just don't tell them and ruin my rep.
5. I've come to realize that, I've lost:
-- things in my life i'm better without.
6. I've come to realize that, I hate how:
-- I feel as if despite all of this...I'm stil not happy with my shallow physical self.
7. I've come to realize that, Marriage is:
-- something that is actually going to happen to me.
8. I've come to realize that, somewhere, someone is thinking:
-- their life is worse than anyone elses.
9. I've come to realize that, I'll always have:
-- my friends and family on MY side.
10. I've come to realize that, I have a crush on:
-- not the same person I have for the last 2 years.
11. I've come to realize that, The last time I truly cried was:
-- over something stupid that I brought upon myself.
12. I've come to realize that, My cell phone is:
-- becoming something I see less and less of.
13. I've come to realize that, When I wake up in the morning:
-- I'm the happiest I ever been.
14. I've come to realize that, Before I go to sleep at night I:
-- am so lucky.
15. I've come to realize that, Right now I am thinking about:
-- how I need to take a shower.
16. I've come to realize that, Babies:
-- are scary when you're not ready for them.
17. I've come to realize that, I get on myspace:
-- too much.
18. I've come to realize, that today:
-- Is the start of a new year. Well technically it was yesterday, but after New Years Eve, I didn't really move on the 1st.
19. I've come to realize, that tonight i will:
-- be having a lonnnggg talk with Johnathan.
20. I've come to realize that, school is :
-- something I'm really happy to get back to.
21. I've come to realize that, Tomorrow I will:
-- be okay.
22. I've come to realize that, I really want:
-- to continue to be happy.
23. I've come to realize that my last kiss:
-- involved smelly morning breath
I've adjusted to living back in Kingman without my family and living with my boyfriend. It was pretty weird at first, especially with dealing with his family and his little sister. Thanksgiving and Christmas were okay, sucked a little not being with my family, cried a little, but it happens.
I've come to realize that my relationship isn't perfect. I guess in my head I used to have this preconceived idea that if a relationship is perfect you'll always get along and never fight, and that usually if I was liking someone and things started getting "if'y" I'd just run away. I've actually rode everything out with this one and I'm such a better place for it. If we fight, we work it out, I've stopped hiding and running, and in the end of it all, we usually end up closer than we were before. I've gotten past the "i'm older and he's younger" thing that I had going on, and just embrace the fact that he acts older than me and actually understands me.
The "I've come to realize" survey.
1. I've come to realize that, my ex:
-- will always be a giant geek.
2. I've come to realize that, I talk:
-- over everyone else...no thanks to our family's version of Survival of the Fittest.
3. I've come to realize that, I love:
-- my boyfriend in a way I never thought I could love anyone.
4. I've come to realize that, I have:
-- some of the greatest parents...just don't tell them and ruin my rep.
5. I've come to realize that, I've lost:
-- things in my life i'm better without.
6. I've come to realize that, I hate how:
-- I feel as if despite all of this...I'm stil not happy with my shallow physical self.
7. I've come to realize that, Marriage is:
-- something that is actually going to happen to me.
8. I've come to realize that, somewhere, someone is thinking:
-- their life is worse than anyone elses.
9. I've come to realize that, I'll always have:
-- my friends and family on MY side.
10. I've come to realize that, I have a crush on:
-- not the same person I have for the last 2 years.
11. I've come to realize that, The last time I truly cried was:
-- over something stupid that I brought upon myself.
12. I've come to realize that, My cell phone is:
-- becoming something I see less and less of.
13. I've come to realize that, When I wake up in the morning:
-- I'm the happiest I ever been.
14. I've come to realize that, Before I go to sleep at night I:
-- am so lucky.
15. I've come to realize that, Right now I am thinking about:
-- how I need to take a shower.
16. I've come to realize that, Babies:
-- are scary when you're not ready for them.
17. I've come to realize that, I get on myspace:
-- too much.
18. I've come to realize, that today:
-- Is the start of a new year. Well technically it was yesterday, but after New Years Eve, I didn't really move on the 1st.
19. I've come to realize, that tonight i will:
-- be having a lonnnggg talk with Johnathan.
20. I've come to realize that, school is :
-- something I'm really happy to get back to.
21. I've come to realize that, Tomorrow I will:
-- be okay.
22. I've come to realize that, I really want:
-- to continue to be happy.
23. I've come to realize that my last kiss:
-- involved smelly morning breath