Um, yes
Havent done anything today. Only thing I'll actually accomplish today is going to work.
Which bothers me because I wanted to get stuff done today. Why didnt i? Well, exhaustion. And the fact that my house isnt mine. It's infuriating. Constantly. I just want to wake up in the morning to my normal empty house. Come home in the afternoon to my normal empty house. Only have to worry about me and Dad. That's it. Nada mas. Is that selfish of me? Well, only fifty fifty. I'm not actively wishing harm on anyone or anything. I just want my life back.
I'd move out if i had anywhere to go or any money to pay for it. What really bothers me is that I have nowhere to go days like yesterday when I got home at noon. I didnt have anywhere to go hang out for a couple of hours or anything. I was stuck at home, trying to ignore the goddamn homemaker who makes me miserable. She washed the dishes, which is why I found some bizarre yellow lump on one of the knives. If you cant wash a dish, how can you take care of another human being? Seriously?
This makes me grumpy, so then my boyfriend worries about me, and then I feel worse and grumpier. I'm doing that whole "i dont want to go to work" thing, but I know that really I want to because i can use the money and because that's the best place for me on days like today. And I'm closing, and as much as it sucks, I love closing. Starting around five I just recover so I'm in my own little world and the only people who bother me are customers and I'm generally happy to help. So I'll end up being in a fantastic mood. Tomorrow will be rough because it's a take care of grandma day, but talk about I could use the money. Not that I've seen any for the time I've put in thus far. But I will, so whatevs.
Want to get my hair cut before graduation. Since wearing a cap requires your hair to be down and whatnot. So, I'm aiming to do that prolly the week of, that way the cut is fresh, but I'll have a little time to experiment if its wicked humid or something. So that I dont have a nice haircut and a wicked afro. Yeah, I'm gonna go with my short 'do again, and hope that this summer doesnt prove it's a bad choice, lol. But if it does, I'll grow it out for the summer, but keep it trimmed up and nice. Or something. I dunno. I'd really love to get into contacts and stuff. And get my wisdom tooth out before it kills me. We'll see. I keep thinking about the work situation and I'm trying to work something out. We'll see.
In any case, I'm aiming to be out of mi casa by this time next year. But student loans, car payments, car taxes, car insurance, and eventually health insurance hopefully. Well, it's about 1:30, which means I should dig up some lunch and then dig up something to take to work for dinner and then hit the road.
I feel okay. A little glum, prolly from trying to work out the right amount of sleep and the less than gorgeous sunny weather.
But I have Bryan to make me smile, and he does that more often than he knows. Even though i'm gonna die from eating gum off the sidewalk. At least everyone will know what a hot guy I was dating. ;)
Toodles and stuff.
Which bothers me because I wanted to get stuff done today. Why didnt i? Well, exhaustion. And the fact that my house isnt mine. It's infuriating. Constantly. I just want to wake up in the morning to my normal empty house. Come home in the afternoon to my normal empty house. Only have to worry about me and Dad. That's it. Nada mas. Is that selfish of me? Well, only fifty fifty. I'm not actively wishing harm on anyone or anything. I just want my life back.
I'd move out if i had anywhere to go or any money to pay for it. What really bothers me is that I have nowhere to go days like yesterday when I got home at noon. I didnt have anywhere to go hang out for a couple of hours or anything. I was stuck at home, trying to ignore the goddamn homemaker who makes me miserable. She washed the dishes, which is why I found some bizarre yellow lump on one of the knives. If you cant wash a dish, how can you take care of another human being? Seriously?
This makes me grumpy, so then my boyfriend worries about me, and then I feel worse and grumpier. I'm doing that whole "i dont want to go to work" thing, but I know that really I want to because i can use the money and because that's the best place for me on days like today. And I'm closing, and as much as it sucks, I love closing. Starting around five I just recover so I'm in my own little world and the only people who bother me are customers and I'm generally happy to help. So I'll end up being in a fantastic mood. Tomorrow will be rough because it's a take care of grandma day, but talk about I could use the money. Not that I've seen any for the time I've put in thus far. But I will, so whatevs.
Want to get my hair cut before graduation. Since wearing a cap requires your hair to be down and whatnot. So, I'm aiming to do that prolly the week of, that way the cut is fresh, but I'll have a little time to experiment if its wicked humid or something. So that I dont have a nice haircut and a wicked afro. Yeah, I'm gonna go with my short 'do again, and hope that this summer doesnt prove it's a bad choice, lol. But if it does, I'll grow it out for the summer, but keep it trimmed up and nice. Or something. I dunno. I'd really love to get into contacts and stuff. And get my wisdom tooth out before it kills me. We'll see. I keep thinking about the work situation and I'm trying to work something out. We'll see.
In any case, I'm aiming to be out of mi casa by this time next year. But student loans, car payments, car taxes, car insurance, and eventually health insurance hopefully. Well, it's about 1:30, which means I should dig up some lunch and then dig up something to take to work for dinner and then hit the road.
I feel okay. A little glum, prolly from trying to work out the right amount of sleep and the less than gorgeous sunny weather.
But I have Bryan to make me smile, and he does that more often than he knows. Even though i'm gonna die from eating gum off the sidewalk. At least everyone will know what a hot guy I was dating. ;)
Toodles and stuff.