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...As I said, it seems to help. This is my second post in one day. I must be addicted. I still don't know why trusting is so hard. Maybe it's just my perception of God, or perhaps my perception of myself. Maybe I'm not convinced that God has my best interests at heart, or that he understands exactly why I feel the way I do. Most people believe I'm making something out of nothing, why shouldn't he? I could imagine him thinking I was being silly, and the only reason he is concerned is not because of the apparent issue, but because of how it has affected me, and at some points consumed me. I could almost feel his scolding hand ready to fall ever so harshly upon me. I've learned one thing though: choose your trials, because this one could have easily been avoided. Knowledge can be a curse. The author of Ecclesiastes said that with much knowledge comes much sorrow. Sometimes I believe my own mind is working against me. Now I just got to figure out which of the voices in my head to listen to. Ah, screw this........................