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So i am working right now. ITs boring off the freaking charts.. but for 12 dollars an hour i think i can manage being bored.
I am in such an odd state of mind at this moment. Last night i had coffee with courtney jackie and Mrs Pickett and it was such an amazing time just to talk and pray with eachother. I realize now How much i am changing. I feel different. I like it and i dont. I can't even really explain it so im not sure why im writting about it.. maybe im just hoping someone else knows what im getting at. This summer like everyone has said has been prefect. I could not ask for better friends...family (jh band that is) ...Encouragement... battles. I have truley been blessed through every Experience big and small.
I miss soo much. People, times, Gosh it freaking hurts soo much and i had never even expected to feel such pain. I am soo thankful that God continues to fill me with a great Joy and passion for this place.. even as i loose so many of the ones who have helped shape me. They will remain in my heart and memories forever until we meet again.. be that in a few weeks.. years.. or eternity. AHHHHHHHHH i dont know how to feel, these pains and joys are confusing me soo much...!!! Im Loving life soo much right now.. in all of its sorrows and hardships...
This sunday during worship we sang.. You give and take away.. you give and take away.. my heart will choose to say.. lord blessed be your name!... It was in this time that i heard exactly what i need to hear... Though it feels as though we are loosing so much our heavenly father will continue to give even when he is taking away.. and no matter how hard it is to accept the losses we still Must continue to bless our God.. and what a blessing that is for us!
Blessed be the name of the lord!!
I am in such an odd state of mind at this moment. Last night i had coffee with courtney jackie and Mrs Pickett and it was such an amazing time just to talk and pray with eachother. I realize now How much i am changing. I feel different. I like it and i dont. I can't even really explain it so im not sure why im writting about it.. maybe im just hoping someone else knows what im getting at. This summer like everyone has said has been prefect. I could not ask for better friends...family (jh band that is) ...Encouragement... battles. I have truley been blessed through every Experience big and small.
I miss soo much. People, times, Gosh it freaking hurts soo much and i had never even expected to feel such pain. I am soo thankful that God continues to fill me with a great Joy and passion for this place.. even as i loose so many of the ones who have helped shape me. They will remain in my heart and memories forever until we meet again.. be that in a few weeks.. years.. or eternity. AHHHHHHHHH i dont know how to feel, these pains and joys are confusing me soo much...!!! Im Loving life soo much right now.. in all of its sorrows and hardships...
This sunday during worship we sang.. You give and take away.. you give and take away.. my heart will choose to say.. lord blessed be your name!... It was in this time that i heard exactly what i need to hear... Though it feels as though we are loosing so much our heavenly father will continue to give even when he is taking away.. and no matter how hard it is to accept the losses we still Must continue to bless our God.. and what a blessing that is for us!
Blessed be the name of the lord!!