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i was thinking after i posted that old poem. i used to write soo much. it made me feel so good. even though i could never be satisfied with something of mine so i threw away everything i ever wrote.. ive decided i miss it. i miss writting, i miss painting ,i miss singing, i miss photography, i miss designing, i miss decorating. Where did it all go? i think i got myself soo wrapped up in higschool drama i forgot where i had planned to stay. I forgot me. Ive forgotten to care soo much about me that sometimes when i look in the mirror i cant even recognize the face looking back. Its time to go back. I want to appriciate life more, i want to appriciate God more, i want to appriciate, art and originality, my different ness no matter how many people turn it down.. cause i got so bogged down in the rude remarks and hurtful comments that i threw away that individuality i was once so proud of. i want to appriciate talks (jose you are so rigth about that!) , i want to appriciate music more, nature more, writting. I want to read more. where are my glasses dangit?? i want to forget about all this people pleaseing crap ive been thinking abotu lately and do what i want to do. i dont want to be like everyone else. i dont want to sacrifice my CRAZY dreams. i dont want to be ashamed of hanging out withsomeone because its soo foregn to everyone else. i want to talk to more people without being so shy. i want people to stop lookign at the surface and take a chance to see me!! not my looks. My looks are everything i hate. even if i shouldnt. its what ive come to know.. so please dont focus on those flaws cause it kills me inside. if i dont take a compliment the way i should im sorry. i dont even know how to accept them properly if i dont believe them but they are soo appriciated and they really make me glow inside. if its not visible outside. Thanks to everyone who has put a piece of themselves into my life. it wont be forgotten! you wotn be forgotten!
"a friend is always a friend! " proverbs 17:17
Its time to resurface. find myself. the old me. And i dont want to feel soo lost again!
COURTNEY MAYFIELD!! you are amazing. I feel like i can be me around you and i love that. I dont want to refer to you as "you" any more! im soo happy to be your friend. im soo glad i met you and i love everything about you! i nevre want to loose our friendship. but if anything ever goes wrong.. yuo have been sooo much to my life in just this short time.! thank you soo much from the bottoem of my heart!!
time to be M.E
"a friend is always a friend! " proverbs 17:17
Its time to resurface. find myself. the old me. And i dont want to feel soo lost again!
COURTNEY MAYFIELD!! you are amazing. I feel like i can be me around you and i love that. I dont want to refer to you as "you" any more! im soo happy to be your friend. im soo glad i met you and i love everything about you! i nevre want to loose our friendship. but if anything ever goes wrong.. yuo have been sooo much to my life in just this short time.! thank you soo much from the bottoem of my heart!!
time to be M.E