Comments | counterfeit_joy: I only write long ones when I am in pain

counterfeit_joy

I only write long ones when I am in pain

Dec 06, 2004 07:18

Well... I may have lost it all... I guess better loosing it all than destroying it all. I just dont know where my head is at right now. And they say when you are lost to stay in the same place, eventually someone will find you. DO I want to be found? Do I just want to spend my final days before I starve in seclusion? I used to have just one fear ( Read more... )

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onelastprayer December 6 2004, 08:10:01 UTC

oh bun :(

counterfeit_joy December 7 2004, 01:23:57 UTC

thank yoU!

tommygirl December 6 2004, 08:44:11 UTC

this reminds me of a song I can't fully remember...
but basically claims that love is just another chemical imbalance of the brain
(give me your email and I'll send you a link to it)
...just like a drug.
so -you're right about that.

I definitely think people hold on to the negatives MORE than the positives of past relationships.
after all, they failed, and every failure leaves a mark...right?

all I can say is that it sounds like you KNOW 'J' isn't good for you. I guess I think you should go with that gut instinct and...do whatever is right for you.
(sounds selfish...but so does she)

counterfeit_joy December 7 2004, 01:25:00 UTC

awww.... my email is in my profile. I knwo she isnt good for me and I am using that knowledge to move forward. I think I am ready to put up a wall against her

mzvanessa December 6 2004, 14:55:31 UTC

*hugs*
I know it's hard,and it hurts,but you know "j" is only going to hurt you more.You deserve so much better.
I have no profound insight,but you know if you need to talk,i'm around to listen.... well,to read anyways.

counterfeit_joy December 7 2004, 01:25:21 UTC

thank you... see about post!

counterfeit_joy December 7 2004, 01:29:05 UTC

I mean above... tired...

soulcrusher December 6 2004, 17:35:28 UTC

Everyone in this city and even beyond knows what I think about J (bad 'cause I haven't even met her).
That aside, my personal of opinion of the situation is this.
I think you might be more in love with the idea of J, and how she used to be than how she really is now. Since you associate how she makes you feel with how L made you feel, these feelings are probably more difficult to let go of than they would be if she didn't make you feel that way.
Believe that time will help to lessen those feelings, and that you deserve better.

Of couse all of what I've said may be completely wrong since I am so far removed from the situation. =|.

counterfeit_joy December 7 2004, 01:27:11 UTC

thanks Allison... you're right and I think I will be better soon. She is treating me like shit... saying she is going to call and then not calling at all, and when we do talk ( impersonally over MSN of course ) she doesnt even apologise or mention she was suppose to call. I dont need this shit... hey Allison... youre better.. tee hee