Woke up with weird.
I did new years last night---obviously. I went to my friends house in Glendale az, before heading to Mesa to see my friend Dora---the party blew so we went to an all ages club in North Scottsdale. Dora and her boyfriend decided to elave early and I'd made some friends so I ended up leaving there around 145. I decided to drive down to my favorite lesbian bar---where I met with some old friends and a girl I liekd dragged me to an after party---where I got mixed signals galore but had a great time. I got home at 9am. I....woke up with weird. At first I was confused because I seemed to have lost all atrraction to her which was odd----because I don't normally shut off like that. Then I started feeling stranger.....I seem to have lost all interest in relationships for the moment. Not that I don't wnat to continue to grow the relationships I do have and let things become romantic---I just feel no need for a romantic relationship right now. It's puzzling for me----as I do wnat to not be single for the rest of my life----but I juts feel very strange. I will use this time to do much soul searching---but it feels really weird---like evry crush I had just dropped off. The new year bodes well. Because if you don't feel the need for a romantic relationship----and you have good friends----than I won't be feeling lonely much. This year will be interesting to say the least.