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i dont understand my computer. everytime i think its normal, something gay happens that changes that. and i honestly have no idea how these things happen, they just do. for instance, i have had a message for the last 2 days saying that the printer is out of paper, no matter how much i poke and prod at the insides of the fucking printer it remains, and forbids me to print anything. so, in lieu of doing anything rational, i think im just going to take it outside adn beat the fuck out of it office space style.
this place is SO boring. the only thing keeping me sane is the decent amount of totally awesome people here. if like, it were malibu or new york, with actual things to do, coupled with the same people, it would be a glorious time and id never think of laeving for any reason. but sadly we live in lehman and are basically isolated from the rest of the world. this creates yet another problem, aside from the lack of things to do, and that is that everyone i know wants to GET OUT. bad. once they all leave little old lehman, they will most likely not come back. at least for a long time (4 years :p), which is basically just enough time for our relationships to dissolve and for me to come back to an empty area not only faced with the problem of what to do, but now who to do it with as well. im sure ill see people on breaks and such, but my breaks are very few and far in between, and hopefulyl i get to come in mroe than i predict, but i just dont foresee that happening, which is sad, but also fine with me. its weird. not really. hell i dont know. it could be?
so today i had my camera in school, complete with new memory card capable of holding incredible amounts of pictures. i think the amount of space i had left allotted for 98 pictures or something, and i ended up leaving the school with 13 pictures left. now, bear with me for i havent had a math class in a LONG time... thast like 98 - 13 = 85. 85 pictures taken today. i spent a good 45 minutes transferring them to a folder and then naming each one. it was such a long and hard process that i needed a power nap afterwards. they are glorious pictures though. the realyl sad part is that i guarantee i will be doing the exact same thing tomorrow.
i was looking through the pictures today, and staarted to get all nostalgic and whatnot. i think thats actually the first time ever that ive been nostalgic over the school in a serious way... as opposed to normally where i say "hey remember that time we made that video and it was funny and hilarious and we watched it everyday for like 3 months in the library and then they tore the library down?" todays reflections were more like "hey im never going to be in this building again and ive actually had some fun times despite the ultimate shame and humiliation its brought me and that ill miss some good people." i know. thats kinda lame, but hey, frankly i have to do it sometime and its best to get it out now than later when i actually have to leave. cause i dont want to regret leaving ONE bit. and i dont think i will.
blah blah volelyball sucks and i want it to be over and i dont ever want to go to states despite mr b thinking we can win it because hes a fucking psycho who has no concept of whats actually going to happen.
tomoorrow is senior night for volelyball and all the seniors are giving their fathers these keychains with messages written on them. mine says "scottie is number 2" and hes going to get pissed and im just gonna laugh. but, then again, he also informed me earlier that he wasnt attending senior night cause it was gay. his exact words.
no more. this should last like a good week and half before i work up the desire to update again. :P
this place is SO boring. the only thing keeping me sane is the decent amount of totally awesome people here. if like, it were malibu or new york, with actual things to do, coupled with the same people, it would be a glorious time and id never think of laeving for any reason. but sadly we live in lehman and are basically isolated from the rest of the world. this creates yet another problem, aside from the lack of things to do, and that is that everyone i know wants to GET OUT. bad. once they all leave little old lehman, they will most likely not come back. at least for a long time (4 years :p), which is basically just enough time for our relationships to dissolve and for me to come back to an empty area not only faced with the problem of what to do, but now who to do it with as well. im sure ill see people on breaks and such, but my breaks are very few and far in between, and hopefulyl i get to come in mroe than i predict, but i just dont foresee that happening, which is sad, but also fine with me. its weird. not really. hell i dont know. it could be?
so today i had my camera in school, complete with new memory card capable of holding incredible amounts of pictures. i think the amount of space i had left allotted for 98 pictures or something, and i ended up leaving the school with 13 pictures left. now, bear with me for i havent had a math class in a LONG time... thast like 98 - 13 = 85. 85 pictures taken today. i spent a good 45 minutes transferring them to a folder and then naming each one. it was such a long and hard process that i needed a power nap afterwards. they are glorious pictures though. the realyl sad part is that i guarantee i will be doing the exact same thing tomorrow.
i was looking through the pictures today, and staarted to get all nostalgic and whatnot. i think thats actually the first time ever that ive been nostalgic over the school in a serious way... as opposed to normally where i say "hey remember that time we made that video and it was funny and hilarious and we watched it everyday for like 3 months in the library and then they tore the library down?" todays reflections were more like "hey im never going to be in this building again and ive actually had some fun times despite the ultimate shame and humiliation its brought me and that ill miss some good people." i know. thats kinda lame, but hey, frankly i have to do it sometime and its best to get it out now than later when i actually have to leave. cause i dont want to regret leaving ONE bit. and i dont think i will.
blah blah volelyball sucks and i want it to be over and i dont ever want to go to states despite mr b thinking we can win it because hes a fucking psycho who has no concept of whats actually going to happen.
tomoorrow is senior night for volelyball and all the seniors are giving their fathers these keychains with messages written on them. mine says "scottie is number 2" and hes going to get pissed and im just gonna laugh. but, then again, he also informed me earlier that he wasnt attending senior night cause it was gay. his exact words.
no more. this should last like a good week and half before i work up the desire to update again. :P