She sinks into dispair...falling off into a sadness that cannot be shaken...until she dies...lonely.
I guess I'll always love Liz, and I'll always hold out hope for us to be together. I also believe that I have to move on, if for nothing else than to not feel so alone. Yeah, I have good friends in Melissa and Kevin, and I'll soon have my friends Justin and Nikki here in Arizona...well, I guess it could be a year before they're here, but you get the picture. They're friends though, not companions. I want to have a partner, a true partner, someone who really knows me. Someone who thinks and feels the same way that I do. I thought that Liz would be that, but that won't happen anytime soon, if ever. I so totally want the best for her. I want her to embrace God, I want her to not be sick and I want her to be happy. She's always sick...Her life won't be long on this Earth, so I want her to find God so desperately.
I'm listening to Ryne Sandberg right now reciting his HOF induction speech. He's talking about his wife right now, his words to her and about her were beautiful. That's what I want...someone to talk about like that. I really want that to be Liz, but if God has someone else in mind, I'll gladly move on to that person. If God wants me to wait for Liz, then I'll happily do that too. I'm in a perfect position here, she know where I am...1,800 miles away. All she has to do is come to me. I'm realistic about it all though, I don't believe that she'll ever come here for me. She wants something else right now...I don't know what she wants, but I hope that she gets everything that she desires. I hope and pray that she desires God one of these days soon though. She's dying every day...
So God bless, and if you have someone to hold, hold them tight. Remember to breathe...
I'm listening to Ryne Sandberg right now reciting his HOF induction speech. He's talking about his wife right now, his words to her and about her were beautiful. That's what I want...someone to talk about like that. I really want that to be Liz, but if God has someone else in mind, I'll gladly move on to that person. If God wants me to wait for Liz, then I'll happily do that too. I'm in a perfect position here, she know where I am...1,800 miles away. All she has to do is come to me. I'm realistic about it all though, I don't believe that she'll ever come here for me. She wants something else right now...I don't know what she wants, but I hope that she gets everything that she desires. I hope and pray that she desires God one of these days soon though. She's dying every day...
So God bless, and if you have someone to hold, hold them tight. Remember to breathe...