A lot on my mind..
I know it's been forever since I have written an entry but I decided that it might be time to come back slowly. See, the thing is one of the reasons why I left here was because I was beginning to feel as though there was no anonymity on here. I wanted to write things without people knowing who I was and too many people had my livejournal and were reading it. See, the thing was I thought if I wrote on facebook it would be the same sort of thing but with a little more anonymity, but then EVERYONE decided to get a facebook and now I am feeling drawn back to livejournal. I am still not sure as to whether or not I will start to write in here regularly again, but I might come back slowly.
I need to sort out some thoughts as to what is going on in my life right now. Since graduating college I have just felt very lost and confused. I am finally starting to have some direction again as to what I want to do and I have a plan of how to get there, which is so much better than I had before. I decided that I need a job, not something permanent because I have decided that in order to do what I really want to do, I need to go back to school, and in order to do that.. I need to get a job to pay for that. I have been applying for jobs for months and months and just kept getting so frustrated because I was not getting any kind of responses back. Now, I get two phone calls in the same day regarding potential jobs and this is coming two weeks after I had an interview with another place. Now as excited as I am that I am finally starting to move forward with my life, there are so many questions and concerns that I have regarding which job to take.
The first job is a full time position which is the main draw, to be perfectly honest. It is doing something that I never considered doing before but is similar to my education degree. It is a place that creates technology that they sell to several different school systems across the world. My job would be to train these administrators and such as to how to use this program. Now, even though I can use technology pretty well it is not something that I really want to do for the rest of my life. But this nagging part of me just keeps reminding that it is a full time position which would involve benefits and a regular paycheck and I would be stupid to turn it down. I was so excited about it for awhile just because it was the first position that was even close to being a full time thing that I was even considering. The only problem with that is that now I am so busy doing volunteer work with church and I have a bunch of vacations and things planned for the summer and everything that would probably not be possible if I had a full time job. I am not really willing to give up this stuff either because it is so important to me and I have already made commitments to this. So I dont know what to do. I know that if this is something that is meant to be, then it will all work out- and that I will be able to do both.. even though I may be extremely busy. Eventually I do want to go back to school, but is that something I can do with a full time job on top of everything else I am doing? I dont think so, at least not right away.
Then the other job, in which I have an interview with tomorrow is something that is extremely exciting because it is with a school. It is only nine hours a week, which is not a whole lot but it will get my foot in the door of a school and get my name around and maybe could lead to something else in the future. Even though I dont really want to be a teacher anymore, I still want to work in the school system so this could work out really well. I cant help but think that if I took that one, and continued on with my babysitting which I am doing pretty regularly now I would still have the time to do everything that I am involved in now and I could start making more of an effort to save up my money and it could work out. I dont know.. perhaps it is wishful thinking.
I dont even know if any of these places will even offer me the job. I had one phone interview with the first place, and if I am still interested(which I am currently debating) I could have a second phone interview. Then, tomorrow I have the interview with the principal of the school. I just feel like whatever choice I make it could affect my future. So anyway, the question I have for those of you who are reading this, what should I do? I know that it is my decision and it will ultimately me that has to make this decision, but any input or advice or new insight into it that I am missing would be welcome and much appreciated.
I need to sort out some thoughts as to what is going on in my life right now. Since graduating college I have just felt very lost and confused. I am finally starting to have some direction again as to what I want to do and I have a plan of how to get there, which is so much better than I had before. I decided that I need a job, not something permanent because I have decided that in order to do what I really want to do, I need to go back to school, and in order to do that.. I need to get a job to pay for that. I have been applying for jobs for months and months and just kept getting so frustrated because I was not getting any kind of responses back. Now, I get two phone calls in the same day regarding potential jobs and this is coming two weeks after I had an interview with another place. Now as excited as I am that I am finally starting to move forward with my life, there are so many questions and concerns that I have regarding which job to take.
The first job is a full time position which is the main draw, to be perfectly honest. It is doing something that I never considered doing before but is similar to my education degree. It is a place that creates technology that they sell to several different school systems across the world. My job would be to train these administrators and such as to how to use this program. Now, even though I can use technology pretty well it is not something that I really want to do for the rest of my life. But this nagging part of me just keeps reminding that it is a full time position which would involve benefits and a regular paycheck and I would be stupid to turn it down. I was so excited about it for awhile just because it was the first position that was even close to being a full time thing that I was even considering. The only problem with that is that now I am so busy doing volunteer work with church and I have a bunch of vacations and things planned for the summer and everything that would probably not be possible if I had a full time job. I am not really willing to give up this stuff either because it is so important to me and I have already made commitments to this. So I dont know what to do. I know that if this is something that is meant to be, then it will all work out- and that I will be able to do both.. even though I may be extremely busy. Eventually I do want to go back to school, but is that something I can do with a full time job on top of everything else I am doing? I dont think so, at least not right away.
Then the other job, in which I have an interview with tomorrow is something that is extremely exciting because it is with a school. It is only nine hours a week, which is not a whole lot but it will get my foot in the door of a school and get my name around and maybe could lead to something else in the future. Even though I dont really want to be a teacher anymore, I still want to work in the school system so this could work out really well. I cant help but think that if I took that one, and continued on with my babysitting which I am doing pretty regularly now I would still have the time to do everything that I am involved in now and I could start making more of an effort to save up my money and it could work out. I dont know.. perhaps it is wishful thinking.
I dont even know if any of these places will even offer me the job. I had one phone interview with the first place, and if I am still interested(which I am currently debating) I could have a second phone interview. Then, tomorrow I have the interview with the principal of the school. I just feel like whatever choice I make it could affect my future. So anyway, the question I have for those of you who are reading this, what should I do? I know that it is my decision and it will ultimately me that has to make this decision, but any input or advice or new insight into it that I am missing would be welcome and much appreciated.