Confusing confusing confused...
So, I am feeling particularly confused right now... About Jeff. My boyfriend. And I don't know what to do. So, I haven't seen him in 2 weeks. And before that, I hadn't seen him in 2 weeks. So, in the past month, I've only seen him twice. Yes, I talk to him every day. But not for long. So, I miss him. And I tell him that. And he sent me this text on Sunday: "I know I haven't been there for you as much as I could have and I really want to change that." So, you'd think that this would mean that he'd make more of an effort, right? Especially with me not driving yet. Which hopefully will change this weekend.
However, no effort has been made. He worked yesterday, till 10pm. So I understand this. However, he worked for a while and then has been home since 6 or 7 this evening. Where there's no power. And apparently it's really hot there. So I told him he's welcome to come over and hang out here if he wants because there's air here. And, you know, me. And this is what he said: "I will consider it... I got a few options I'm considering babe. Gotta try to stay close for work and such." And, you know, he doesn't work again until Thursday, I believe, with tomorrow being Independence Day and all and he said he had no plans on the 4th. So, the "gotta stay close for work" thing is a lie. And if you want to change things, don't you think you should make an effort? And quite frankly, he lives about 30 minutes away, and that's with traffic. Isn't that close enough?
So, do you see my confusion? And I don't know what to do... I know I need to talk to him about this. But I kind of have. Like, telling him that I miss him and telling him that I want to see him more. And suggesting things to do. But he either doesn't get it or doesn't care. What do I do? I really like him. And when we are together, I'm happy. He makes me happy. But I feel like I want more. More time with him.
Maybe I give it until I'm driving again? And we see how things go? See if things change now that I can meet him halfway or go out by him? I just don't know anymore...
However, no effort has been made. He worked yesterday, till 10pm. So I understand this. However, he worked for a while and then has been home since 6 or 7 this evening. Where there's no power. And apparently it's really hot there. So I told him he's welcome to come over and hang out here if he wants because there's air here. And, you know, me. And this is what he said: "I will consider it... I got a few options I'm considering babe. Gotta try to stay close for work and such." And, you know, he doesn't work again until Thursday, I believe, with tomorrow being Independence Day and all and he said he had no plans on the 4th. So, the "gotta stay close for work" thing is a lie. And if you want to change things, don't you think you should make an effort? And quite frankly, he lives about 30 minutes away, and that's with traffic. Isn't that close enough?
So, do you see my confusion? And I don't know what to do... I know I need to talk to him about this. But I kind of have. Like, telling him that I miss him and telling him that I want to see him more. And suggesting things to do. But he either doesn't get it or doesn't care. What do I do? I really like him. And when we are together, I'm happy. He makes me happy. But I feel like I want more. More time with him.
Maybe I give it until I'm driving again? And we see how things go? See if things change now that I can meet him halfway or go out by him? I just don't know anymore...