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[Adstringendum Call-Out Post]

Aug 22, 2000 21:57

[This is the post where, if your character and Sango are set up for a conversation/offline and no immediate post or log is available, we can play out said interactions. Just slap up a comment with offline/type of media and perhaps a date, and go go go!]

!offline, !voice, !video, !text, !in-between, *adstringendum, setup

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[Video || Backdated to Tuesday Afternoon] reflectivedawn November 16 2011, 22:29:53 UTC

[Yes, he realizes that this is probably the very worst way to get in contact with you in order to do what he's about to do. And yes, he realizes you have a date to night. And yes he realizes it was just Sunday that he was giving you a stuffed bear and leaving you notes and telling you he loves you. But he put this off for an entire day. He can't let it drag out any longer.]

We need to talk.

[Those dreaded words. Only this time, it's not going to turn out as well as it did the last time.]

[Video || Backdated to Tuesday Afternoon] coraltaijiya November 16 2011, 22:44:58 UTC

[Sango's never seen a movie or read a novel or magazine to know that these are not great words to hear. There should be no connotations attached to them to her--there really shouldn't--but Sango is a taijiya, and demon slayers? Know how to trust their instincts. And this time her gut's telling her that this won't end well.]

Alright, you've got me.

[Here's to hoping it's not something that's serious enough to require in-person stuff? (Fat chance.)]

[Video || Backdated to Tuesday Afternoon] reflectivedawn November 16 2011, 22:49:04 UTC

[He knows she'll figure it out, if by nothing else than by the tone of his voice. There's a rough sadness to it, one that speaks of a couple restless nights and endless thoughts spinning around and around in his mind.]

I think it's best if we do this in person.

[He is not doing this over the PCD's, Sango, sorry.]

[Video || Backdated to Tuesday Afternoon]--->[Offline] coraltaijiya November 16 2011, 23:02:47 UTC

Okay.

[She's sharp enough to have it pretty much figured out already. It's something bad. It's right before their scheduled date, and... well, she isn't blind. So she shuts off the PCD, steels her nerves, and exits her room to knock quietly at his door.]

[Offline] reflectivedawn November 16 2011, 23:15:02 UTC

[It takes him a moment, but soon enough the door is opening, revealing him and the brightly lit room, the sun streaming in through the window, the curtains pulled back to allow it to enter.]

Hey.

[He gestures for her to come in, closing the door behind her and moving to lean up against it, hands pressed and trapped between himself and the wood.]

You might wanna sit down.

[Offline] coraltaijiya November 16 2011, 23:32:27 UTC

[She shakes her head.]

...no, that's alright.

[Offline] reflectivedawn November 16 2011, 23:51:01 UTC

Okay.

[He takes a deep breath, looking away from her for a moment, trying to sort through his thoughts enough to find the right words.]

Remember... [He stops, shaking his head, before finally letting bright green eyes settle on her face.] Remember that first day, when I woke up? You told me that, no matter what, Kohaku would always come first. And I told you I understood, because Sora would come first to me.

Even... before you. [Those words sounded so cold now. Like they didn't have a place coming out of his mouth.] I can only give that much of myself to one person. And right now... it has to be him.

[Offline] coraltaijiya November 17 2011, 00:23:42 UTC

[She's known this day would come. It's had to. By the very nature of the terms of their involvement, it's had to. Second best. A lifetime ago those words made her smile, they were the best thing she ever could've hoped to hear him say.]

[He isn't saying what they're thinking, now--second best--and maybe that's worse than saying it when it's the phrase that above all else the sense of selfishness no one can truly banish doesn't want to hear.]

[Her chest is tight and for a moment it feels like she can't breathe. The room spins--and then, abruptly, it doesn't. And she's almost light-headed because it feels like everything should be crashing down, and yes there are scalding-hot tears pricking at her eyes but they're alien and it's like she can't figure out why they're there. And later she'll remember why, and it will be so, so much worse.]

[A promise of pain she can't process at the moment, despite having had time to prepare? Probably. Because once again, she got attached to something--someone--knowing the outcome from the start? ( ... )

[Offline] reflectivedawn November 17 2011, 00:44:46 UTC

[She was right. Sora wouldn't just need to all of his attention right now, for that moment, but forever. For as long as he was there and even after, once they were both sent home or once they were given the impossible choice of going or staying. Sora would always need that much of him ( ... )

[Offline] coraltaijiya November 17 2011, 01:27:11 UTC

[She's halfway to just begging him to let her go, because she can't deal with this now, it's so hard to resist the jealousy and resentment that lurks--the emotions that separate her from Kagome, who's in this position as well somewhere out there--and she remembers how Kikyo always seems to win because Kikyo was there first (regardless of what's happened in Adstringendum). And then she remembers it's not a contest, because she was set to lose from the start, and she tries and fails to remember a time when she was alright with that. In a week, a month, she'll remember--but right now she can come up with no right answer. Right now it's run away or stay and hurt him with things she's not supposed to mean.]

[And that's why she needs to go, until she can remember why second best was alright, until she can reign in these waves of pain and hurt and so much jealousy. Because she knows all too well how emotion rules her. Let me go, she wants to scream, don't touch me--just please let me leave.]

[(But then she remembers that she doesn't beg-- ( ... )

[Offline] reflectivedawn November 17 2011, 01:39:46 UTC

[And likewise, he knows somewhere deep inside that it's not the same. Sora was different from Kohaku in so many different ways. She would always see Sora as competition, while Kohaku was her brother, someone who would come between them in a different way. And they've both always known that. That underneath it all, that was how Sora would be seen when the end finally came ( ... )

[Offline] coraltaijiya November 17 2011, 01:58:30 UTC

[A deep breath, a hard swallow, and she's halfway out the door--and then she stops, shudders once, and closes her fingers around the doorknob tightly. She doesn't turn to look at him--she doesn't exactly know why--but there's just one word.]

Goodbye.

[And he has to know enough by now to know that it's not a forever goodbye, and it's not even a full goodbye or a temporary one. It's not even a goodbye to him. It's stupid and sentimental and she shouldn't indulge it but she said it anyway. She's saying goodbye to what they had.]

[Where's the dawn now?]

[And then she's gone, a flurry of movement towards her room, scooping up Kirara and Kou and her scarf and casting a long look towards that stuffed animal and resisting the urge to throw it to the kittens as a chew toy. She can decide on that later. And right after that Riku will be able to hear her footsteps on the stairs and finally, if he listens closely, the surprisingly gentle open and close of the front door.]

[Offline] reflectivedawn November 17 2011, 02:06:56 UTC

[He doesn't respond. There's nothing to respond with or to. There's only a familiar emptiness slowly seeping back into heart, reopening all of the cracks and pieces that she had once filled. But there are no words. No goodbye, no sentimental words to try and make it better ( ... )

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