4
It is now day four of the big change and it's getting sort of better. I'm thinking about it less, but I'm still having a hard time with certain songs and the times (right before bed, and right after I wake up) that I haven't had time to get my brain focused on anything else yet. Ryan hasn't communicated with me at all today, and I wonder if this is just the way it's going to be? I know I'm over the top and I am sorta obsessive, but this is so important to me :( I know he's in Hawaii having fun with his parents (who he never gets to spend time with), but he JUST broke up with me! If I were him, I would be checking in, or missing me, or whatever! I don't know what's going on in his head, and I guess it's not my right to know anymore.
This sucks.
:(
This sucks.
:(