aggravate.
On top of the shitty day yesterday was, with unfulfilled goodbyes and leaving with the same level of fucked up friendships, my parents got to Mairin and I.
There are only a few people who can make us (me) feel this way and two of them are our parents. Mairin asked to buy a new camera and they brought up how we aren't made of money. We don't think we are, but frankly, Mairin's been working all summer and could afford to get a new camera at least.
Then, when she got mad, they turned on me about money (again). And I just didn't say anything. I'm so tired of it. It's so backwards and such. Yea, I should've saved more money, but even if I had I still wouldn't have been able to cover my deposit and such. This is why I didn't even want their help, because this is what happens.
I kept looking into other things though, more loans, and they got mad about it and told me to wait and then said they would do it. And while I was eternally grateful, I KNEW this would happen and it's so frustrating.
Mostly, because, they think our priorities are all wrong and that we think we live a priviledged life and have a sense of entitelment. Um, no. And it's absolutely frustrating, because, comparitively, my brother has wasted the most out of all of us. Mairin and I have had jobs since high school and rarely asked for anything.
I just get so annoyed and upset. UGH. I CAN'T. & they still doubt that this is what I want to do. I'm tired of trying to prove it, especially when you then turn around and talk about us like you're so proud.
There are only a few people who can make us (me) feel this way and two of them are our parents. Mairin asked to buy a new camera and they brought up how we aren't made of money. We don't think we are, but frankly, Mairin's been working all summer and could afford to get a new camera at least.
Then, when she got mad, they turned on me about money (again). And I just didn't say anything. I'm so tired of it. It's so backwards and such. Yea, I should've saved more money, but even if I had I still wouldn't have been able to cover my deposit and such. This is why I didn't even want their help, because this is what happens.
I kept looking into other things though, more loans, and they got mad about it and told me to wait and then said they would do it. And while I was eternally grateful, I KNEW this would happen and it's so frustrating.
Mostly, because, they think our priorities are all wrong and that we think we live a priviledged life and have a sense of entitelment. Um, no. And it's absolutely frustrating, because, comparitively, my brother has wasted the most out of all of us. Mairin and I have had jobs since high school and rarely asked for anything.
I just get so annoyed and upset. UGH. I CAN'T. & they still doubt that this is what I want to do. I'm tired of trying to prove it, especially when you then turn around and talk about us like you're so proud.