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as per usual, it is 3:24am and i am wide awake. and i did not do a single productive thing since i woke up yesterday. i had planned on studying for at least 4 hours, and then studying today for 2 more today. ..so much for that. i've been sitting at this desk for.. 6 hours? that sounds about right, with bathroom breaks and all. how pathetic is that?! i'm a complete failure at college. i simply haven't the motivation for it. mmmore on that another time.
last night i went to gallery hop with my school-friend from texas, where she went to a boarding school. her neighbor was george foreman! isn't that crazy?! and her dad lives and works in africa. what a crazy life and so many stories to tell! i feel so uncultured and inexperienced when she talks about all of it, but she is very lucky to have had all of those experiences. we had a good time and i am glad i didn't sulk around the house all night, hung out with a new friend and saw many others. i am at the start of feeling good again.. i really can feel it.
also last night, i had to defend my sanity and stand my moral ground and literally push a certain someone off of me. i won't go into further detail, but i will say that it felt good that i readily rejected the prospect of the kinds of things i used to do that made me feel like shit, or, well .. a slut. i don't think he understood, but i don't think he really cares anyway. and that is precisely why i don't do said "slutty" things anymore. go me, and self respect!
i think it's high time i get out of this chair and into my bed - a whole foot away. i can be almost sure that roseanne is on, or will be on in the next hour. and damn, what a great thing to fall asleep to.
6 hours of studying tomorrow? yikes. wish me luck!
last night i went to gallery hop with my school-friend from texas, where she went to a boarding school. her neighbor was george foreman! isn't that crazy?! and her dad lives and works in africa. what a crazy life and so many stories to tell! i feel so uncultured and inexperienced when she talks about all of it, but she is very lucky to have had all of those experiences. we had a good time and i am glad i didn't sulk around the house all night, hung out with a new friend and saw many others. i am at the start of feeling good again.. i really can feel it.
also last night, i had to defend my sanity and stand my moral ground and literally push a certain someone off of me. i won't go into further detail, but i will say that it felt good that i readily rejected the prospect of the kinds of things i used to do that made me feel like shit, or, well .. a slut. i don't think he understood, but i don't think he really cares anyway. and that is precisely why i don't do said "slutty" things anymore. go me, and self respect!
i think it's high time i get out of this chair and into my bed - a whole foot away. i can be almost sure that roseanne is on, or will be on in the next hour. and damn, what a great thing to fall asleep to.
6 hours of studying tomorrow? yikes. wish me luck!