2 Minutes To Midnight! Uh oh!
No matter what we do each day, somebody somewhere gets hurt.
If we eat meat, we are damaging the ozone by contributing to cows farting, (not to mention hurting the poor brainless bovines themselves.) If we eat vegetables, we are contributing to topsoil erosion, and destruction of natural habitats (where do you think they get the water from for irrigation?) or even to the oppression of 3rd-world peoples.... (who picks the fruits and veggies you eat?). If we drive a car to work, we are contributing to pollution. If I take that job, somebody else won't get it. If I buy that game at a yard sale, someone else will miss out on the deal. If I stay home tonight and work on my computer, my friends may be hurt that I didn't go to Sports Plus with them.... If I don't get married, I'm hurting my parents by "living in sin".... The list is endless. Even killing yourself will hurt others - family and friends who will miss you and blame themselves for not preventing your self-inflicted demise.
You wonder, what you can do to stop such nonsense and hopefully do something that hurts no one: Well simply put you can't. Everything you do will end up hurting someone. Whether it be selfish, self-less or just in self-preservation something will affect someone somehow.
Throughtout my days, I like to help as many people as I can. It's for my own personal pleasure I guess. Call me selfish, but I like the feeling of making someones life better somehow in any way I can. So I DO whatever I can to do so. Ironically enough, the thought rarely crosses my mind what I REALLY would like from that person in return.
Now don't get me wrong I'm not stopping what I've been doing. I will continue to make people happy to make myself happy regardless of what anyone thinks. That's me.
Lately, I've found myself questioning the meaning of life. Well, I asked Jeeves and he didn't know either. There goes my backup plan...:-\. Regardless, I shall continue my story.
I've come to the conclusion that I, Chaco, Am a sucker for romance. I want it more than I've ever wanted anything. I want it more than my RPGs, More than my arcade cabinet and I want it just as bad as I want my Pepsi in the morning which baby baby is QUITE A LOT. I've found someone I take whatever steps neccassary to wind up in a romantic relationship somehow. It will be done, I'm gunna promise myself that...With who: I do not know.
This leads me back to my original discussion, I will try my best to get into a romantic relationship. Someone out there will get hurt in the process and for this I apologize in advance. I cannot just sit around and watch myself be destroyed by fucking jealousy and rage eating away at my soul. I'll do something to fuel myself. Pepsi isn't the answer this time.
Sorry if I sound like an asshole, This must be let out in the open somehow. Take good care of yourself, Until next entry...
If we eat meat, we are damaging the ozone by contributing to cows farting, (not to mention hurting the poor brainless bovines themselves.) If we eat vegetables, we are contributing to topsoil erosion, and destruction of natural habitats (where do you think they get the water from for irrigation?) or even to the oppression of 3rd-world peoples.... (who picks the fruits and veggies you eat?). If we drive a car to work, we are contributing to pollution. If I take that job, somebody else won't get it. If I buy that game at a yard sale, someone else will miss out on the deal. If I stay home tonight and work on my computer, my friends may be hurt that I didn't go to Sports Plus with them.... If I don't get married, I'm hurting my parents by "living in sin".... The list is endless. Even killing yourself will hurt others - family and friends who will miss you and blame themselves for not preventing your self-inflicted demise.
You wonder, what you can do to stop such nonsense and hopefully do something that hurts no one: Well simply put you can't. Everything you do will end up hurting someone. Whether it be selfish, self-less or just in self-preservation something will affect someone somehow.
Throughtout my days, I like to help as many people as I can. It's for my own personal pleasure I guess. Call me selfish, but I like the feeling of making someones life better somehow in any way I can. So I DO whatever I can to do so. Ironically enough, the thought rarely crosses my mind what I REALLY would like from that person in return.
Now don't get me wrong I'm not stopping what I've been doing. I will continue to make people happy to make myself happy regardless of what anyone thinks. That's me.
Lately, I've found myself questioning the meaning of life. Well, I asked Jeeves and he didn't know either. There goes my backup plan...:-\. Regardless, I shall continue my story.
I've come to the conclusion that I, Chaco, Am a sucker for romance. I want it more than I've ever wanted anything. I want it more than my RPGs, More than my arcade cabinet and I want it just as bad as I want my Pepsi in the morning which baby baby is QUITE A LOT. I've found someone I take whatever steps neccassary to wind up in a romantic relationship somehow. It will be done, I'm gunna promise myself that...With who: I do not know.
This leads me back to my original discussion, I will try my best to get into a romantic relationship. Someone out there will get hurt in the process and for this I apologize in advance. I cannot just sit around and watch myself be destroyed by fucking jealousy and rage eating away at my soul. I'll do something to fuel myself. Pepsi isn't the answer this time.
Sorry if I sound like an asshole, This must be let out in the open somehow. Take good care of yourself, Until next entry...