I know that you don't care. I know that people don't care, but it still hurts. And I still love you very much. I'm just depressed and I can't control what I say sometimes. I'm sorry if it hurt/s you. I don't mean for it to at all. I can't do anything right, I'm sorry. And I'm sorry that I can't look at your sides of things lately. My vision has been very clouded. That isn't me. I have been pushing people away because it seems like no one wants me there anyways. I feel left out and uncomfortable. And yeah that may not be the case, but that's how I feel. It makes me feel so bad the way that I have been treating you. And I'm sorry, I don't mean to treat you like that. When I get depressed I can't control my emotions and it is like I am a whole new person. And it is just taking over me alot as of late. But I'm afraid of asking things from you because you tend to say no or don't want to do them because you'd rather be with someone else or doing something else. Or you say one thing then go do another thing. I understand. And I try not to ask things of you anymore unless I really really need them. Just tell me the truth. The truth hurts less than lying. And I just don't like to set myself up for hurt. Because even though you have the right to say no, it still hurts because little things hurt. I'm sorry for the way I have been acting, I'm just trying to find a way to do this on my own. And it isn't working. I just don't know if I should keep people away or embrace them. I've tried both ways and both ways failed. So now here I am once again not knowing how to handle this.
And I still love you very much. I'm just depressed and I can't control what I say sometimes. I'm sorry if it hurt/s you. I don't mean for it to at all. I can't do anything right, I'm sorry.
And I'm sorry that I can't look at your sides of things lately. My vision has been very clouded. That isn't me. I have been pushing people away because it seems like no one wants me there anyways. I feel left out and uncomfortable. And yeah that may not be the case, but that's how I feel. It makes me feel so bad the way that I have been treating you. And I'm sorry, I don't mean to treat you like that.
When I get depressed I can't control my emotions and it is like I am a whole new person. And it is just taking over me alot as of late.
But I'm afraid of asking things from you because you tend to say no or don't want to do them because you'd rather be with someone else or doing something else. Or you say one thing then go do another thing. I understand. And I try not to ask things of you anymore unless I really really need them. Just tell me the truth. The truth hurts less than lying. And I just don't like to set myself up for hurt. Because even though you have the right to say no, it still hurts because little things hurt.
I'm sorry for the way I have been acting, I'm just trying to find a way to do this on my own. And it isn't working.
I just don't know if I should keep people away or embrace them. I've tried both ways and both ways failed. So now here I am once again not knowing how to handle this.
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