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A lot of things have changed in the past 2 days. Im not gonna hide it in anymore. Jonathan and me are no longer anything. It's not going to work. i dont know if i can trust him that way anymore. As much as I should hate him right now and tell him i never want to see him again. i cant. that scares me but i need him in my life...as a friend or whatever. Last night was weird. After we talked and stuff we were just hanging out..im so used to being able to hold his hand or kiss him or whatever but i couldnt..i didnt know what to do. I hope that anyone who got hurt this summer will just end up being happy. Its going to be weird.. a huge part of my life is gone and i have nothing to fill it in with...yet. and yes im hurting. im sure he's already moved on.. i dont like being lied to, but im gonna forgive him because he is just that great.. but maybe all this happening is all for the best?
im gonna miss you. :(
but ill be okay eventually
and so will you.
im gonna miss you. :(
but ill be okay eventually
and so will you.