Sep 09, 2005 22:20
soooo finally actually did move in with my dad.....and that was hard, that was really hard. im still not conviced mom doesnt hate me, i think as it stands now she is just still upset. i didnt want to talk to her but i did call her and we talked about things for like forty minutes, she started crying again wich is something i didnt think i could handle but i did. actually she kind of suprised me by saying maybe its better this way because she realized i never really did like that neighborhood. but she also said that ron was gradually quitting alcohol. and she said hes going to be selling his house soon and is thinking of moving to nevada....and that shed probly go with him if he did. sooo havent figured out how i think about that one yet, it probably wont happen but i donno they're just crazy enough to do it so who knows. getting to and from school is interesting to say the least. ive started taking the train which is fine except for im late for second hour every day, but ive worked that out with mr oberman (course im dying by the time i get to school but thats another story). took the train home today.....met a girl named shaniqua and her sister stephanie...yes and shaniqua handed stephanie a pocket knife...and i wont repeat what she said to her because well coming from me it might sound offensive so yeah that was interesting. met a creepy guy with really large crystal earrings. saw a crossdresser....i swear it was a dude in a pink tank top and bra with a purse. met a freshmen football player, ben, actually talked to him like the whole train ride....not sure why but he was a nice enough kid...just had elbow surgery and has cousins that go to maine south....told him to see if he knew about chris but i doubt he does, not like his cousin is a cute girl clothed in black right???(what was it "WOW SHES HOT!" something to that effect) or is she i never asked if it was male or female...ya might have somethin there dude. but yeah nice kid. got home and was like yesss its friday...ive had enough playing with deoxyribonucleic acid for one day. yeah speaking of which i had an appt. with the orthopedic place that our trainer comes from and she was there too. after they took like eight x-rays he said i had strained muscles which is what we figured it was but now i cant swim for a week, A WHOLE WEEK!! its gonna drive me freaking nuts!! grrr but i guess we'll see...i do kinda actually want to be able to move right for once. tomarrow is the lap-a-thon in the morning which ill probly just walk around going 'good job' for like two hours....although the girls didnt appreciate the walrus i left for them yesterday...just dont know good artwork when they see it is all hahahahaha yeah thats it.then after that im goin with bree car shopping for stuff and to the mall i do believe...which i am very much so looking forward to(even though we have a class together it still seems like nothing....jess too, im in such withdrawal I MISS THE MORNING CAR RIDES)! then sunday im going dress shopping for palatines homecoming with lauren shannon and some of their friends....ooh a fancy dress! we'll see how well that turns out. yeah and i hate my lunch, i thought i hated seventh lunch oh no no this is worse....i had to sit across from mike today....and hes begun to terrify me for no apparent reason so yeah its not good, not to mention we sit with holly and lauren k and kaitlyn and i dont think any one of them really care for about half of that table, which is not to say that they're not good people because i think they are, i just came to the realization that there are two types of people in the world and they fall in to the type of only caring when it matters and forgetting the rest of the world...which in and of itself is not bad but its not for me, id rather be genuine and get along with others even if it may not seem like it. i donno i was thinking baout that when i should have been thinking about the amine group bonding with the carboxyl group for our protien reactions and yeah i donnno it was bothering me. and it bothers me when that bothers me because i hate being critical i really do and i think im falling in to that trap of being exactly what i hate. its really bad when you actually become what you hate. but i think some of that i donno pessibmism maybe came from the situation and the stress that resulted from it. im so hoping that this will change things even though im still buried in five degrees of shock it feels ok. for now anyway, but im sooo worried about what will happened. mrs. blietz wants me to come and talk to her regularily for 'counseling' which i guess isnt too bad of an idea but i donno i dont like being taken out of lunch....i donno im rambling here and im gonna stop because it probably makes no sense and seems unimportant so ill stop here. byebye