Fanmix (Buffy): Fallen For A Monster
Type of work: Fanmix
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Characters/Pairings: Buffy/Angel, Angelus
Rating: PG (mild sexual references)
Spoilers: For all of season 2
Notes: Made for waywardmixes round 29, 'First Fandom'. Full size art, summary, lyrics and listen-online links under the cut.
First Fandom Challenge: Buffy the Vampire Slayer was the first show I was truly obsessed with. It was the show I wrote my first proper fanfiction for (which nobody apart from me has read, even now!), and the show that has had the biggest impact on my life. Back when we first got dial-up internet, I would spend ages waiting for photos of Angel to load up so I could print them off to drool over. And I love it as much now as I did when it first aired 18 years ago. These days I’m more of a Buffy/Spike girl, but seeing as this is a ‘first fandom’ challenge, I thought I’d use my original ship, and when I was a teenager I was a huge Buffy/Angel fan.
Buffy is a 16 year old vampire slayer, Angel is a 241 year old vampire with a soul trying to make amends for the terrible things he did when he didn’t have soul. They fall in love, and on Buffy’s 17th birthday, they finally sleep together. But the curse that gave Angel his soul had a clause: if he ever experienced a moment of true happiness, he would lose his soul and all he held dear. After their night together, Buffy wakes to find Angel has once again become Angelus, a soulless monster bent on her destruction.
This mix follows Buffy from the initial forbidden attraction to Angel, to the night they give in to their desires, to the morning after and Buffy’s heartbreak. It continues through Buffy’s fear and hate towards Angelus, and then her attempt to find a way to restore his soul. It ends when Angel’s soul is finally restored - moments too late - and Buffy must kill him anyway to save the world, after one final kiss to remember him by. I’ve tried to choose tracks that I think Buffy would have identified with.
LISTEN ONLINE AT 8TRACKS
1. Kelly Clarkson - Addicted
it’s like you’re a drug
it’s like you’re a demon I can’t face down
it’s like I’m stuck
it’s like I’m running from you all the time
2. Allison Iraheta - Trouble Is
I could slip so easily into you
if I let myself go
I could let my wildest dream come true
you never know
how it’s gonna wind up in the end
3. Melissa Etheridge - Lover Please
I woke up to find
you had broke all the rules
and you changed your mind
didn’t I love you good
didn’t I love you right
then tell me where are you going
dressed to kill tonight
4. Sarah McLachlan - Stupid
love has made me a fool
it set me on fire and watched as I floundered
unable to speak
except to cry out and wait for your answer
5. Stooshe - Black Heart
Daddy I’ve fallen for a monster
somehow he’s scaring me to death
he’s big and he’s bad
I love him like mad
Momma he’s the best I ever had
6. Missy Higgins - Peachy
now I’m split in two
I’m half me and half you
but I hate us both, don’t you?
7. Sarah McLachlan - World on Fire
hearts break, hearts mend
love still hurts
visions clash, planes crash,
still there’s talk of saving souls
still the cold is closing in on us
8. Natalie Merchant - Frozen Charlotte
still as the river grows in December
silent and perfect blinding ice
spring keeps her promises
no cold can keep her back
I want you to remember me that way
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Characters/Pairings: Buffy/Angel, Angelus
Rating: PG (mild sexual references)
Spoilers: For all of season 2
Notes: Made for waywardmixes round 29, 'First Fandom'. Full size art, summary, lyrics and listen-online links under the cut.
First Fandom Challenge: Buffy the Vampire Slayer was the first show I was truly obsessed with. It was the show I wrote my first proper fanfiction for (which nobody apart from me has read, even now!), and the show that has had the biggest impact on my life. Back when we first got dial-up internet, I would spend ages waiting for photos of Angel to load up so I could print them off to drool over. And I love it as much now as I did when it first aired 18 years ago. These days I’m more of a Buffy/Spike girl, but seeing as this is a ‘first fandom’ challenge, I thought I’d use my original ship, and when I was a teenager I was a huge Buffy/Angel fan.
Buffy is a 16 year old vampire slayer, Angel is a 241 year old vampire with a soul trying to make amends for the terrible things he did when he didn’t have soul. They fall in love, and on Buffy’s 17th birthday, they finally sleep together. But the curse that gave Angel his soul had a clause: if he ever experienced a moment of true happiness, he would lose his soul and all he held dear. After their night together, Buffy wakes to find Angel has once again become Angelus, a soulless monster bent on her destruction.
This mix follows Buffy from the initial forbidden attraction to Angel, to the night they give in to their desires, to the morning after and Buffy’s heartbreak. It continues through Buffy’s fear and hate towards Angelus, and then her attempt to find a way to restore his soul. It ends when Angel’s soul is finally restored - moments too late - and Buffy must kill him anyway to save the world, after one final kiss to remember him by. I’ve tried to choose tracks that I think Buffy would have identified with.
LISTEN ONLINE AT 8TRACKS
1. Kelly Clarkson - Addicted
it’s like you’re a drug
it’s like you’re a demon I can’t face down
it’s like I’m stuck
it’s like I’m running from you all the time
2. Allison Iraheta - Trouble Is
I could slip so easily into you
if I let myself go
I could let my wildest dream come true
you never know
how it’s gonna wind up in the end
3. Melissa Etheridge - Lover Please
I woke up to find
you had broke all the rules
and you changed your mind
didn’t I love you good
didn’t I love you right
then tell me where are you going
dressed to kill tonight
4. Sarah McLachlan - Stupid
love has made me a fool
it set me on fire and watched as I floundered
unable to speak
except to cry out and wait for your answer
5. Stooshe - Black Heart
Daddy I’ve fallen for a monster
somehow he’s scaring me to death
he’s big and he’s bad
I love him like mad
Momma he’s the best I ever had
6. Missy Higgins - Peachy
now I’m split in two
I’m half me and half you
but I hate us both, don’t you?
7. Sarah McLachlan - World on Fire
hearts break, hearts mend
love still hurts
visions clash, planes crash,
still there’s talk of saving souls
still the cold is closing in on us
8. Natalie Merchant - Frozen Charlotte
still as the river grows in December
silent and perfect blinding ice
spring keeps her promises
no cold can keep her back
I want you to remember me that way