It's been a while..
Yes it has. It has been a while since I updated my blog. Alot of things have happened and a lot of thing have changed. I just don't have much courage or energy to do anything much lately. I made a lot of empty promises. Yes, yes I have. Sometimes I feel I cannot get out of bed. Sometimes I feel I hate the world and sometimes I feel I don't need the world. I'm not going into details of explaining why I feel this way. I just do. I still do love what I love and not necessary do what I love or have the energy to try. I've noticed my emotions have changed rapidly lately. I've noticed I don't know what day or time of day it is anymore. One minute I can be full of joy and another minute I can feel like I want to die. What is that called? Depression? Maybe I am. Maybe I am not. I do not know. I just know I must change or it'll get worse. So I try.
Try? Well... I haven't vaccumed the house in weeks. I normally vaccum once or every other week as possible. I made an effort to vaccum the house. I actually vaccumed the entire house. Some people might say that's just an idiotic accomplishment, but it's actually quite a big accomplishment for me. I'm trying to be my normal self again. Do the things I love, keep myself busy. Thus, I will try to write in my beloved blog every so often. Their is nothing I can do buy try not to feel empty, because staying home in bed is worse than feeling nothing for the accomplishments I have done.
So.. Now I leave you with... a Bitch by Meredith Brooks'. No this version is not sung by Meredith Brooks'. It's by the Dutch Band - Room Eleven. It's all jazzed up. It's nice to hear my favourite songs sung with a twist.
*hint hint* *i use to listen to this song when my M came around.*
Try? Well... I haven't vaccumed the house in weeks. I normally vaccum once or every other week as possible. I made an effort to vaccum the house. I actually vaccumed the entire house. Some people might say that's just an idiotic accomplishment, but it's actually quite a big accomplishment for me. I'm trying to be my normal self again. Do the things I love, keep myself busy. Thus, I will try to write in my beloved blog every so often. Their is nothing I can do buy try not to feel empty, because staying home in bed is worse than feeling nothing for the accomplishments I have done.
So.. Now I leave you with... a Bitch by Meredith Brooks'. No this version is not sung by Meredith Brooks'. It's by the Dutch Band - Room Eleven. It's all jazzed up. It's nice to hear my favourite songs sung with a twist.
*hint hint* *i use to listen to this song when my M came around.*