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[cookedshoe]

Today I had to do this thing for Interact. I worked at a Spring Fling at Schrader Elementary. A bunch of my friends and I went. Susan was there. We wound up not getting partnered up, but we got tents next to each other. It was so odd though. My tent had to be closed on the one side, so it closed off everyone else including Susan. I felt like it symbolized our friendship latley. How we've had this fallout. As the side of material was being drawn up by the setter-upper, Susan just smiled and looked over the thing on her tippy toes. I did the same. When it was up she was gone. When I stepped outside the tent, she looked over and smiled her susan smile. But it was at a distance and saw from afar like our friendship now. Far. Distant. It's merely an aquantince now. What happened to my best friend. What happened? We said forever. We said like sisters. I guess not.

I love her to death. I just wish we could of understood each other a little better. She was my bestest friend in the entire world, besides Alyssa.

I have sort of isolated myself latley, and that's the kind of stand I had. Away from all my friends. The little kids ran up to the stand and they just kept coming non-stop. It was so strenuous, like my life right now. Go figure. I can't wait for my summer, maybe it will for once be carefree. And maybe I'll understand things a little better. Who knows? I surely don't, but if you all read this and the other dumb entries, I'm sure you already know that.

....I love you.