Ups and Lows can be Dangerous.
So Life is still pretty good. Way confusing but way good. Lets see since the last time i updated. . . . for the past 2 days I have been hanging out with aaron at his house when i get out of school. It has been way tight, just chillin, smokin trees a grip and like talking. . Its weird to actually talk to him about shit because like we basically fucked and that was it all we knew about eachother was like emotion and sex. lol so going over there was legit. I got to hear EVERY piece of music he has ever recorded. some nobody has ever heard before. lol That was sick as fuck. So yeah the last 2 days have been pretty tight. . . today we didn't hang out, which is probably a good thing. we don't need to chill every flippin day. Its funny cause my heart tells me one thing and my head tells me another and it sucks. or my heart is trying to tell me but i'm making myself think another. I dunno its weird. But I'm taking life as it comes.
Chrsitina's last night was last night. we met at amados for the last time. . . then she came back to my house and we blazed for the last time together for a bit. . . that was sick. lol I'm going to miss her SO much it sucks. But she will be back. . .
Things are changing everywhere. I am taking it as best as I can. But sometimes its so hard. This thing with compton. I love it, i honestly do. Its so sick, but things get complicated. . . like i'm the girl that your tight with and like we chill and shit and then u can fuck when u want. . . That fucks with my heart. . . bad. I know what i'm doing to myself I know that yeah potentially in the long run I'm going to end up heart broken. WHY THE FUCK DO I KEEP DOING THIS THEN? I don't understand it. because i'm following my heart. . . and its what i want. gay I know. lol whatev, I'm having fun. . . .
Chrsitina's last night was last night. we met at amados for the last time. . . then she came back to my house and we blazed for the last time together for a bit. . . that was sick. lol I'm going to miss her SO much it sucks. But she will be back. . .
Things are changing everywhere. I am taking it as best as I can. But sometimes its so hard. This thing with compton. I love it, i honestly do. Its so sick, but things get complicated. . . like i'm the girl that your tight with and like we chill and shit and then u can fuck when u want. . . That fucks with my heart. . . bad. I know what i'm doing to myself I know that yeah potentially in the long run I'm going to end up heart broken. WHY THE FUCK DO I KEEP DOING THIS THEN? I don't understand it. because i'm following my heart. . . and its what i want. gay I know. lol whatev, I'm having fun. . . .