so maybe im selfish
I am trying to understand he needs time... but i need him, i don't mean as a boyfriend, i need my best friend. i am an absolute wreck and i not gunna try to hide that. i don't want to bitch at him, at just want him to be here. his presence makes me feel better and i don't kno wht else will make me feel better. i can't fucking sleep, i can't eat w/ out being nausus... i wasn't excepting to be ok, but i didn't think i'd be this upset. i thought i was ok... im not and i just want him to be here... damn, i being fucking pathethic