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friend: mmmm but apprently we end up like our parents
friend: and worst of all
friend: we end up having relationships liek our mum and dads ones
friend: that scary aint it
Hell fucking yeah it is. I don't wanna end up like them. *thinks* I REALLY don't want to end up like them. I don't want to follow the goddamn pattern. I don't end up like my mum, with a person like my dad.. oh that would be disaster. If this is true, then I really don't want kids. Why have them when they're just going to go through the same things I went through?
And according to US Cosmopolitan, girls who grow up without or with bad relationships with their dad's are supposed to have a hard time with the opposite sex. The same probably goes for guys and their mum's... that really sucks. I find it funny how scientists like to do research on these things because most people are different... and some people go through bad times after bad times and don't really know anything else to let it fuck with their head. There's nothing to compare it to except for some of the perfect family shit you see on tv. And when you're experiencing it, everything's fine until a vpsychologist, or random person, steps in to tell you everything really isn't fine that you really get the issues and start worrying about them and then try to make yourself fit in with the rest of society. But why try to fit into something which you clearly don't belong to? If there was no 'ideal' to begin with people would be living free and isn't that what we're supposed to do? All these restrictions are man made and now that man has taken over the world it's too late to change them. So basically we're doomed.
I'd like to belive otherwise. I do believe in balances, light and dark, good and evil, ying and yang. I'd rather embrace the dark with the light.. I'd appreciate the light much more. There's no point blocking them out because then what would I have left? Half a picture... even less. What's the point in that? I don't like lying to myself and that's what I would be doing. Having said all of that I have blocked out some things, but it's not because I was ashamed of the situations or anything, my mind just blocked out details on it's own. But I own my mind and I can, if I wanted to unblock those things and face reality.
So now, I'm going to take these silly tests, read all the advice women's magazine psychologists give to people and laugh at them. Why? Because the answers are right under our noses.. everything is so fucking simple, scientists just like to complicate things by categorising them and giving 'model' remedies that only really work for people who fit the model.
Urgh.. the arguing has started again.
friend: and worst of all
friend: we end up having relationships liek our mum and dads ones
friend: that scary aint it
Hell fucking yeah it is. I don't wanna end up like them. *thinks* I REALLY don't want to end up like them. I don't want to follow the goddamn pattern. I don't end up like my mum, with a person like my dad.. oh that would be disaster. If this is true, then I really don't want kids. Why have them when they're just going to go through the same things I went through?
And according to US Cosmopolitan, girls who grow up without or with bad relationships with their dad's are supposed to have a hard time with the opposite sex. The same probably goes for guys and their mum's... that really sucks. I find it funny how scientists like to do research on these things because most people are different... and some people go through bad times after bad times and don't really know anything else to let it fuck with their head. There's nothing to compare it to except for some of the perfect family shit you see on tv. And when you're experiencing it, everything's fine until a vpsychologist, or random person, steps in to tell you everything really isn't fine that you really get the issues and start worrying about them and then try to make yourself fit in with the rest of society. But why try to fit into something which you clearly don't belong to? If there was no 'ideal' to begin with people would be living free and isn't that what we're supposed to do? All these restrictions are man made and now that man has taken over the world it's too late to change them. So basically we're doomed.
I'd like to belive otherwise. I do believe in balances, light and dark, good and evil, ying and yang. I'd rather embrace the dark with the light.. I'd appreciate the light much more. There's no point blocking them out because then what would I have left? Half a picture... even less. What's the point in that? I don't like lying to myself and that's what I would be doing. Having said all of that I have blocked out some things, but it's not because I was ashamed of the situations or anything, my mind just blocked out details on it's own. But I own my mind and I can, if I wanted to unblock those things and face reality.
So now, I'm going to take these silly tests, read all the advice women's magazine psychologists give to people and laugh at them. Why? Because the answers are right under our noses.. everything is so fucking simple, scientists just like to complicate things by categorising them and giving 'model' remedies that only really work for people who fit the model.
Urgh.. the arguing has started again.