Pissed off
I can't wait to get out of this house.
Can. Not. Wait.
Too much goddamn arguing and I really really can't be bothered to argue right now.
Just a little privacy, that's all I want. Do not open my mail. Do not go into my bedroom. Do not eavesdrop on my telephone conversations. Such simple things.
I hate feeling this way because I end up taking out all my anger on someone who doesn't deserve it, someone who's always been nice to me, someone who just happened to cross my path during the wrong time.
I need some time alone right now. As an 'only' child I'm used to being alone and I haven't had any Maya-time for a while. My problem is that there is nowhere I can go to be alone. I don't want to push people away, I don't want to go to a desert, I just want to disappear for a while. Have warmth around me without being a part of it. I don't know if that makes sense, but I don't really care, I understand it and that's all that matters right now.
I'm going to Bristol tomorrow. I got a job interview.. yay... It's a weekend job which I'm a bit :-S about. Most of my friends work and we normally only get the chance to do stuff during the weekends, so I'd rather keep mine free. But there's not much I can do at the moment to change any of that.. I mean I don't even HAVE the job yet, it's just an interview.
I guess the summer's over now.
Can. Not. Wait.
Too much goddamn arguing and I really really can't be bothered to argue right now.
Just a little privacy, that's all I want. Do not open my mail. Do not go into my bedroom. Do not eavesdrop on my telephone conversations. Such simple things.
I hate feeling this way because I end up taking out all my anger on someone who doesn't deserve it, someone who's always been nice to me, someone who just happened to cross my path during the wrong time.
I need some time alone right now. As an 'only' child I'm used to being alone and I haven't had any Maya-time for a while. My problem is that there is nowhere I can go to be alone. I don't want to push people away, I don't want to go to a desert, I just want to disappear for a while. Have warmth around me without being a part of it. I don't know if that makes sense, but I don't really care, I understand it and that's all that matters right now.
I'm going to Bristol tomorrow. I got a job interview.. yay... It's a weekend job which I'm a bit :-S about. Most of my friends work and we normally only get the chance to do stuff during the weekends, so I'd rather keep mine free. But there's not much I can do at the moment to change any of that.. I mean I don't even HAVE the job yet, it's just an interview.
I guess the summer's over now.