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i dont feel good im tired as hell, im waiting for dave to call, daves suposed to call today he promised, im waiting until 5 and if he doesnt call well then im getting outta bed and doing something because after five are tons and tons of opprotunities. ima get a homeboy goin.
SO yea i feel like shit, i look like shit, i dont know maybee i am shit. lol.im gonna go in a minute and watch a movie, lay down in bed. ya know everytime im sick im single. i want to have a boyfriend for these times that wont fight with me, and will rub my head and feed me soup and cuddle and watch movies with me, and stay there holding me as im sleeping. and tell me it'll me ok. im about to get really depressed. and in a couple weeks you'll see me depressed, it'll be a Monday febuary 14, and ha a fucking loser will be doing nothing but sitting at home, because ive not got a boyfriend. I swear im gonna find drugs, any which way i will find drugs to be fucked up that whole week or sleep taht whole week so that i dont have to deal with valentines day i dont ahve to deal with the depression and i dont ahve to deal with the "happy valentines days" or Not getting them. IM like the scrooge of all holidays when im single its sickening. i hate it but its the way i am. !
SO yea i feel like shit, i look like shit, i dont know maybee i am shit. lol.im gonna go in a minute and watch a movie, lay down in bed. ya know everytime im sick im single. i want to have a boyfriend for these times that wont fight with me, and will rub my head and feed me soup and cuddle and watch movies with me, and stay there holding me as im sleeping. and tell me it'll me ok. im about to get really depressed. and in a couple weeks you'll see me depressed, it'll be a Monday febuary 14, and ha a fucking loser will be doing nothing but sitting at home, because ive not got a boyfriend. I swear im gonna find drugs, any which way i will find drugs to be fucked up that whole week or sleep taht whole week so that i dont have to deal with valentines day i dont ahve to deal with the depression and i dont ahve to deal with the "happy valentines days" or Not getting them. IM like the scrooge of all holidays when im single its sickening. i hate it but its the way i am. !