I'm just a crosshair; I'm just a shot away from you.
August 12th, 2007
"Show me the most beautiful girl in the world and I'll show you the guy that's with her that's tired of her crap."
I'm not one of those male chauvinist types, but I just found that quote to be funny and stunningly accurate. lol Looking back on my last relationship, it rings especially true. She was easy on the eyes but one hell of a pain in the ass.
Oh, it's my birthday today! So everyone gather around in a semi-circle and sit indian-style and give me the presents you've meticulously picked out for me. :D
I went with Whitney and her mother to the annual Irish festival in Minnesota down at Harriet Island a few days ago and it was a lot of fun. I got a shirt and a hat, and that hat's won a special place on top of my TV. There will be pictures coming very soon, so... Yeah! Be ready for them.
September 11th, 2007
I know I haven't updated in a while, but up above is a post I started a few weeks ago but wasn't able to finish until now.
So, how's everyone been!?!? Would like to thank all of you for not removing me from your friends despite my being gone for... -Counts-... Five weeks?! Damn. Now I just feel like a jerk.
A few weeks into my breakup with Kristy, I had been in a really bad spot and didn't really feel I had anyone to talk to since I had sort of abandoned all of my friends for the entire year and then some that I was with her so I could devote all of my time to her. Most of my friends had moved away or started going to school in different states and I'd never felt more alone in my entire life and I kicked myself endlessly for giving so much of my time that was more deserved with other people onto that mistake. I couldn't hold it in anymore and began searching for anything, anyone to talk to that would listen or could even remotely understand what I was feeling and how devestated I was.
As lame as it sounds, I typed "Broken Heart" into a Google search with hopes of finding some forums or websites with people experiencing the same things I was. I came across the website 43 Things which is a website where you make a list of things you really want to do in the near or far future and share your ideas with other people. The thing it led me to was "Get Over a Broken Heart." I took solace in seeing just how many people were sharing my outlook and situation and it made me feel better like you wouldn't believe. Most had problems far worse than mine; a cheating husband or wife whom they had numerous children and a mortgage with or that just left them without any reason or explanation, abusive significant others they had to tear themselves away from but still loved strongly, and some that were literally left at the altar and that never heard from their should've-been spouse again. Many had been seperated only recently while others were still feeling the heartbreak even after many years or months.
I posted my story and was met with nothing but positive, helpful responses, and I posted and helped others however I could with their problems as well. I ended up placing my AIM alias in one of my responses, and I've received numerous IMs since then from people asking me for updates on how I'm doing, to wanting someone to talk to about a recent breakup they're still tortured over. I've done my best to give them advice on things that've worked for me to help them deal better and have been very, very satisfied and happy with how much I've been able to positively affect peoples' lives when they're at their lowest.
A few days ago, I was IMed by someone. Out of respect for his privacy, we'll call him Dave. He had stumbled upon my posts while searching for the same thing I had, and IMed me upon seeing my offer to always have my door open for anyone that needs someone to talk to, no matter the time or day. He had recently had his heart broken by a girl he moved to the states for and that he had been engaged to for a number of years. They had lived together the entire time and had countless plans for the future, and he'd helped her out in every way he was able, whether it was financially or emotionally. We talked for a number of hours and I brought him up from feeling completely miserable to having a spark revived in him to such an extent that he decided to go get ready and go out that night. It also turns out he's a major Hollywood movie artist and that will be starting production of a movie he's directing in a few weeks. He's insanely successful and grew up in England and went to college in Germany and then moved here to begin his work in movies. He offered me a drink if I ever went out to visit him and we'd hang out and go to some parties.
So, I'm officially friends with a celebrity of sorts. Lol. I know it's him because he has way too much information on "himself" and he showed me numerous portfolios and websites containing his work.
Whitney and I are still together and doing well. She started college again and has a new job so we don't see each other nearly as much, but after us seeing each other every single day for the first two months we were together, I think it's healthy for now.
I've been working out for hours at least three or four times a week and I'm finally starting to really feel results. I can feel my abs tightening again, and I can't wait to have a six-pack again. Been doing countless pull-ups and push-ups for the obvious reasons, and running every chance I get. Have also started eating better, even though I never really ate badly.
Everyone at work knows that I'm leaving for the Marines on December 3rd and have been talking to me constantly about it. Less than three months away. It's so surreal how close it is. My supervisor's a retired Marine so me and him talk a lot about it.
I've been tearing it up on Guitar Hero lately and have been working on getting perfects for all the songs on Hard before doing anything with Expert, even though I've started doing a little with that, too.
Jesse invited me out to Karma for an afterparty for a band he knows, and man... Once again, those little Asian girls can move something fierce. There really isn't anything like being in a club with good friends, holding drinks and dancing for hours on end.
I've gotten Whitney addicted to World of Warcraft. Poor girl. It all started with "Hey honey, come take a look at this." Had her customize a new character for fun and I showed her the basics of how to play and for her birthday, she wanted me to buy her WoW and the Burning Crusade. lol Needless to say, she loved her gift. She bought me a gorgeous Fossil watch and I wear it practically 24/7 now.
I'll write more later. Gotta head home. I've missed you guys!!!
"Show me the most beautiful girl in the world and I'll show you the guy that's with her that's tired of her crap."
I'm not one of those male chauvinist types, but I just found that quote to be funny and stunningly accurate. lol Looking back on my last relationship, it rings especially true. She was easy on the eyes but one hell of a pain in the ass.
Oh, it's my birthday today! So everyone gather around in a semi-circle and sit indian-style and give me the presents you've meticulously picked out for me. :D
I went with Whitney and her mother to the annual Irish festival in Minnesota down at Harriet Island a few days ago and it was a lot of fun. I got a shirt and a hat, and that hat's won a special place on top of my TV. There will be pictures coming very soon, so... Yeah! Be ready for them.
September 11th, 2007
I know I haven't updated in a while, but up above is a post I started a few weeks ago but wasn't able to finish until now.
So, how's everyone been!?!? Would like to thank all of you for not removing me from your friends despite my being gone for... -Counts-... Five weeks?! Damn. Now I just feel like a jerk.
A few weeks into my breakup with Kristy, I had been in a really bad spot and didn't really feel I had anyone to talk to since I had sort of abandoned all of my friends for the entire year and then some that I was with her so I could devote all of my time to her. Most of my friends had moved away or started going to school in different states and I'd never felt more alone in my entire life and I kicked myself endlessly for giving so much of my time that was more deserved with other people onto that mistake. I couldn't hold it in anymore and began searching for anything, anyone to talk to that would listen or could even remotely understand what I was feeling and how devestated I was.
As lame as it sounds, I typed "Broken Heart" into a Google search with hopes of finding some forums or websites with people experiencing the same things I was. I came across the website 43 Things which is a website where you make a list of things you really want to do in the near or far future and share your ideas with other people. The thing it led me to was "Get Over a Broken Heart." I took solace in seeing just how many people were sharing my outlook and situation and it made me feel better like you wouldn't believe. Most had problems far worse than mine; a cheating husband or wife whom they had numerous children and a mortgage with or that just left them without any reason or explanation, abusive significant others they had to tear themselves away from but still loved strongly, and some that were literally left at the altar and that never heard from their should've-been spouse again. Many had been seperated only recently while others were still feeling the heartbreak even after many years or months.
I posted my story and was met with nothing but positive, helpful responses, and I posted and helped others however I could with their problems as well. I ended up placing my AIM alias in one of my responses, and I've received numerous IMs since then from people asking me for updates on how I'm doing, to wanting someone to talk to about a recent breakup they're still tortured over. I've done my best to give them advice on things that've worked for me to help them deal better and have been very, very satisfied and happy with how much I've been able to positively affect peoples' lives when they're at their lowest.
A few days ago, I was IMed by someone. Out of respect for his privacy, we'll call him Dave. He had stumbled upon my posts while searching for the same thing I had, and IMed me upon seeing my offer to always have my door open for anyone that needs someone to talk to, no matter the time or day. He had recently had his heart broken by a girl he moved to the states for and that he had been engaged to for a number of years. They had lived together the entire time and had countless plans for the future, and he'd helped her out in every way he was able, whether it was financially or emotionally. We talked for a number of hours and I brought him up from feeling completely miserable to having a spark revived in him to such an extent that he decided to go get ready and go out that night. It also turns out he's a major Hollywood movie artist and that will be starting production of a movie he's directing in a few weeks. He's insanely successful and grew up in England and went to college in Germany and then moved here to begin his work in movies. He offered me a drink if I ever went out to visit him and we'd hang out and go to some parties.
So, I'm officially friends with a celebrity of sorts. Lol. I know it's him because he has way too much information on "himself" and he showed me numerous portfolios and websites containing his work.
Whitney and I are still together and doing well. She started college again and has a new job so we don't see each other nearly as much, but after us seeing each other every single day for the first two months we were together, I think it's healthy for now.
I've been working out for hours at least three or four times a week and I'm finally starting to really feel results. I can feel my abs tightening again, and I can't wait to have a six-pack again. Been doing countless pull-ups and push-ups for the obvious reasons, and running every chance I get. Have also started eating better, even though I never really ate badly.
Everyone at work knows that I'm leaving for the Marines on December 3rd and have been talking to me constantly about it. Less than three months away. It's so surreal how close it is. My supervisor's a retired Marine so me and him talk a lot about it.
I've been tearing it up on Guitar Hero lately and have been working on getting perfects for all the songs on Hard before doing anything with Expert, even though I've started doing a little with that, too.
Jesse invited me out to Karma for an afterparty for a band he knows, and man... Once again, those little Asian girls can move something fierce. There really isn't anything like being in a club with good friends, holding drinks and dancing for hours on end.
I've gotten Whitney addicted to World of Warcraft. Poor girl. It all started with "Hey honey, come take a look at this." Had her customize a new character for fun and I showed her the basics of how to play and for her birthday, she wanted me to buy her WoW and the Burning Crusade. lol Needless to say, she loved her gift. She bought me a gorgeous Fossil watch and I wear it practically 24/7 now.
I'll write more later. Gotta head home. I've missed you guys!!!