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Hello to all of my new friends. :) It's great meeting you and since I'm on my computer nonstop here at work, expect a lot of comments and long posts.
It's Tuesday!!!! Which is technically my Friday since I work Saturday to Tuesday. It's a little weird going from Monday to Friday in one day, but I'm sure as hell not complaining.
Let's see, what's new... I've decided to give her until the end of today to contact me in any way. If she doesn't, then I'm going to immediately start exploring my options. I've wasted a good couple of months wishing for something that obviously just isn't happening and I can't help but feel like I've been lied to by her endlessly since all of this started. If she did find someone else, which is what I'm suspecting is the case, then everything, everything she said to me about not being able to handle a relationship right now and that she still loves me and knows I'm her soulmate was complete and utter bullshit. What kills me the most is when my friends ask me about how we met and what happened with us since all those memories I've been trying so hard to bury come flooding back. I can't wait to get her out of my mind and thoughts for good, but at least I've been handling everything better and doing a better job of distracting myself. I've never felt hurt like this before and it's enough to literally make me want to drop to my knees and scream at random moments throughout the day.
I know I've said it before, but that's the last post I'll be making about her unless some miracle occurs. I won't be holding my breath, though. Death by suffocation doesn't look all that exciting.
Anyway! Carrie's going to be heading home this morning, so she should be back by this afternoon. I still can't get over the fact that this time last year, we hated each other, and now, she's practically my best friend. There's no one else I can really rely on or see even semi-regularly and she's helped me through everything more than I can fathom.
On WoW, I'm continuing to level my new priest on Blade's Edge. Already got him up to 16 and hoping to have him to 40+ by the end of the week. It's nice being off of Garona. It definitely helps ease my mind and I can just relax and have fun for a change.
Work is starting to take its toll on me and I'm getting more and more irritable by the day. I work my ass off and take call after call while I hear everyone else either standing around and doing nothing or sitting at their desks eating. Some of the people here spend more time at the condiment/utensil area than they do on the phone.
I've gotta give that hospital I want to volunteer at a call tomorrow. Hopefully I don't forget. Again. I'm usually terrible when it comes to things like that. And I have to update my resume and start looking into job listings. I need money! And I have to start looking into apartments and possibly roommates, too. So much to do, so little time.
Nothing else is coming to mind, but, if anyone ever wants to talk on AIM, I'm on all day at work and even when I'm at home and am always up for talking to anyone about anything. I'm a good listener, too, if those services are needed. Information's in my profile. :)
Take care everyone! Will be posting pictures soon.
It's Tuesday!!!! Which is technically my Friday since I work Saturday to Tuesday. It's a little weird going from Monday to Friday in one day, but I'm sure as hell not complaining.
Let's see, what's new... I've decided to give her until the end of today to contact me in any way. If she doesn't, then I'm going to immediately start exploring my options. I've wasted a good couple of months wishing for something that obviously just isn't happening and I can't help but feel like I've been lied to by her endlessly since all of this started. If she did find someone else, which is what I'm suspecting is the case, then everything, everything she said to me about not being able to handle a relationship right now and that she still loves me and knows I'm her soulmate was complete and utter bullshit. What kills me the most is when my friends ask me about how we met and what happened with us since all those memories I've been trying so hard to bury come flooding back. I can't wait to get her out of my mind and thoughts for good, but at least I've been handling everything better and doing a better job of distracting myself. I've never felt hurt like this before and it's enough to literally make me want to drop to my knees and scream at random moments throughout the day.
I know I've said it before, but that's the last post I'll be making about her unless some miracle occurs. I won't be holding my breath, though. Death by suffocation doesn't look all that exciting.
Anyway! Carrie's going to be heading home this morning, so she should be back by this afternoon. I still can't get over the fact that this time last year, we hated each other, and now, she's practically my best friend. There's no one else I can really rely on or see even semi-regularly and she's helped me through everything more than I can fathom.
On WoW, I'm continuing to level my new priest on Blade's Edge. Already got him up to 16 and hoping to have him to 40+ by the end of the week. It's nice being off of Garona. It definitely helps ease my mind and I can just relax and have fun for a change.
Work is starting to take its toll on me and I'm getting more and more irritable by the day. I work my ass off and take call after call while I hear everyone else either standing around and doing nothing or sitting at their desks eating. Some of the people here spend more time at the condiment/utensil area than they do on the phone.
I've gotta give that hospital I want to volunteer at a call tomorrow. Hopefully I don't forget. Again. I'm usually terrible when it comes to things like that. And I have to update my resume and start looking into job listings. I need money! And I have to start looking into apartments and possibly roommates, too. So much to do, so little time.
Nothing else is coming to mind, but, if anyone ever wants to talk on AIM, I'm on all day at work and even when I'm at home and am always up for talking to anyone about anything. I'm a good listener, too, if those services are needed. Information's in my profile. :)
Take care everyone! Will be posting pictures soon.