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I'm not really sure how things happen. How people drift apart and how others grow close. Tonight I just wanted to ask someone a simple question, if me still talking to a once best friend of two years was an annoyance to her. When did answering a question in 2 seconds be to much to replace two years of frienship? Nothing makes sense to me anymore. People lie to others about me, when I never said anything about them, they were trying to break up a friendship, and I will never understand why? Jealousy? I'm not sure. I don't want to fight with people anymore. I keep attempting to fix all that I have messed up in the past few years, and that is quite a bit of things, but I keep failing. I'm more mature then I ever was and I wish people would take the time to see that. I care about everyone that I was friends with and that I am. And I wish I knew they felt the same. I wish people could at least just be decent to eachother. I understand we have drifted, but I haven't been mean to you, and if you ever needed me I'd be there. I'm a phone call away, but you wouldn't know cause you've never called. I've just wanted to know how you were doing, cause I know things have been tough. I was there for many of the first times, and there before petty things got in the way. I remember when drinking behind my grandma's back was the highlight of the month. I remember when we used to be close friends.