scared of loseing him
I cant wait till tuesday, I get to see Pat and I finally will know what I'm having. i kind of feel like Pat doesn't want any thing to do with me any more, he keeps moving further and further away. He's staying with Ronald in Wakegon. I thought woodstock was far enough, guess he thought different. He promises he's ganna be there, but for some reason i cant find any reason to beleive him. I keep having dreams that he's in a car and I'm standing out side of it, then he drives away leaing me by myself. I always wake up feeling like I want to cry, sometimes my dreams mean something, I'm hopeing this one's just me being worried. He left me a message yesterday saying we need to talk, to call him and stuff. I'm scared to call, I don't want to lose him. I know i can't keep avoiding talking to him, but I don't want to hear something that might have to do with him leaving.