ALL STATE
all right so incase any of you were wondering [which you probably weren't but whatever] i went to area auditions this weekend. to try to make all-state.
so there were 15 bassoonists. actually 20 but 5 of them were from the 4A area which is like.. magnolia or whatever. and then the cypress region, and 2 san antonio regions were in 5A area. yeah. all right so. i get there. slightly nervous and all. but i get to the auditions and i'm totally calm. the only thing i'm worried about is i'm playing on a new reed and it's super dry in SA so i had to soak it ALOT. anyways so as always, i try to freak myself out but then can't. so i'm like "i'm cool. i can do this" and i play my first piece. if i do say so myself, i was awesome. well i played better than i usually do. but then second piece, my reed was getting harder, i was listening to other players, and so i'm calm until like half a second before i start playing. and then i start shivering. and i start too fast. and i forgot to breathe so it totally threw me off. that piece was crap. i'm so happy i don't have to play it anymore. okay so i get to my last ppiece [which is my best one] and i was like "ok taylor. you can do this. you can redeem yourself" but, my reed was SUPER hard by then and so my low notes didn't come out and there was alot of jumping octaves and stuff. but i played louder than ever before. so i was like "okay. i'm going to be at least in the top 7 and i'll totally be happy! as long christine makes it i'm good!" and so we wait. and as usual, everyone asks how everyone did. and i say "eh okay." cuz i don't want to be like "I WAS TOTALLY AWESOME AND KICKED BUTT!" and then like turn out last chair or something. but christine was like "SHE WAS FREAKING AMAZING! don't listen to her!!" and all that jazz. so we waited. and finally, the results were posted. i was on the other side of the cafeteria and i saw all the bassoonists head over. so i run over. CHRiSTINE WAS SECOND CHAIR!!! i was excited! and laura was 3rd! and then this guy from SA who is in color guard and acted kinda gay was first. he was extremely good. so i look for my name. it's about halfway down but i can't read in a stright line, so i had to count names. the number of names i had to count was depressing. ninth chair. out of 15. not even in the top half. so i was upset but i tried not to show it because i know everyone was already amazed that i had even made it to area. i just have way too high of expectations for myself. so i called mom and she mdae me cry cuz the first thing she said was "well maybe if you had practiced better you would have made a higher chair. have you learned your lesson? next year your going to practice better." yeah thanks for the encouragement. whatever. so i left a message on my dad's phone and i was still crying. but not like bawling. just my voice was kinda thin and eyes were watery. so then i called molly but she was running. and then i called tasha cuz i really needed to talk to someone but not in person cuz i didn't want them to see me cry cuz i felt bad cuz i'm a freshman. so yeah. i talked to her for like 8ish minutes. she really helped. so after that i hung out with scott and jared, the only two other people from cyfair that didn't make all state. we're going to have a non all staters party just for us :D and then we waited for katie, lindsey, christine, zach, and cottle who all made it to congradulate them, and i saw victoria and i guess i looked like i had been crying or something cuz she gave me a biggggg hug and told me how beautiful i am and how proud she was. she's so sweet. we shocked each other alot [literally] cuz it was so dry. and she grabbed my cheeks and was like "OH! still beautiful! i'm pretty sure your still beautiful! oh? what? she's beautiful? yes i know and she's growing more beautiful as we speak!" i'm going to miss her next year. yeah so then we got on the bus and watched BOA. not fun. i don't want to watch stupid marching competitions. but whatever. so yeah. other than auditions it was fun.
and i'm okay with 9th chair now, becuse i AM only a freshman. and i'm 9th out of about 100 upperclassmen in our region. and next year i will TOTALLY kick butt and make all state cuz i will work my butt off and it will be pretty much sweet.
and i'm glad christine made it in. there was nothing that could have been better than seeing her face when she saw the results. she didn't even see what chair she was she was so excited.
God's in control and this is all for the best. and i'm happy.
so there were 15 bassoonists. actually 20 but 5 of them were from the 4A area which is like.. magnolia or whatever. and then the cypress region, and 2 san antonio regions were in 5A area. yeah. all right so. i get there. slightly nervous and all. but i get to the auditions and i'm totally calm. the only thing i'm worried about is i'm playing on a new reed and it's super dry in SA so i had to soak it ALOT. anyways so as always, i try to freak myself out but then can't. so i'm like "i'm cool. i can do this" and i play my first piece. if i do say so myself, i was awesome. well i played better than i usually do. but then second piece, my reed was getting harder, i was listening to other players, and so i'm calm until like half a second before i start playing. and then i start shivering. and i start too fast. and i forgot to breathe so it totally threw me off. that piece was crap. i'm so happy i don't have to play it anymore. okay so i get to my last ppiece [which is my best one] and i was like "ok taylor. you can do this. you can redeem yourself" but, my reed was SUPER hard by then and so my low notes didn't come out and there was alot of jumping octaves and stuff. but i played louder than ever before. so i was like "okay. i'm going to be at least in the top 7 and i'll totally be happy! as long christine makes it i'm good!" and so we wait. and as usual, everyone asks how everyone did. and i say "eh okay." cuz i don't want to be like "I WAS TOTALLY AWESOME AND KICKED BUTT!" and then like turn out last chair or something. but christine was like "SHE WAS FREAKING AMAZING! don't listen to her!!" and all that jazz. so we waited. and finally, the results were posted. i was on the other side of the cafeteria and i saw all the bassoonists head over. so i run over. CHRiSTINE WAS SECOND CHAIR!!! i was excited! and laura was 3rd! and then this guy from SA who is in color guard and acted kinda gay was first. he was extremely good. so i look for my name. it's about halfway down but i can't read in a stright line, so i had to count names. the number of names i had to count was depressing. ninth chair. out of 15. not even in the top half. so i was upset but i tried not to show it because i know everyone was already amazed that i had even made it to area. i just have way too high of expectations for myself. so i called mom and she mdae me cry cuz the first thing she said was "well maybe if you had practiced better you would have made a higher chair. have you learned your lesson? next year your going to practice better." yeah thanks for the encouragement. whatever. so i left a message on my dad's phone and i was still crying. but not like bawling. just my voice was kinda thin and eyes were watery. so then i called molly but she was running. and then i called tasha cuz i really needed to talk to someone but not in person cuz i didn't want them to see me cry cuz i felt bad cuz i'm a freshman. so yeah. i talked to her for like 8ish minutes. she really helped. so after that i hung out with scott and jared, the only two other people from cyfair that didn't make all state. we're going to have a non all staters party just for us :D and then we waited for katie, lindsey, christine, zach, and cottle who all made it to congradulate them, and i saw victoria and i guess i looked like i had been crying or something cuz she gave me a biggggg hug and told me how beautiful i am and how proud she was. she's so sweet. we shocked each other alot [literally] cuz it was so dry. and she grabbed my cheeks and was like "OH! still beautiful! i'm pretty sure your still beautiful! oh? what? she's beautiful? yes i know and she's growing more beautiful as we speak!" i'm going to miss her next year. yeah so then we got on the bus and watched BOA. not fun. i don't want to watch stupid marching competitions. but whatever. so yeah. other than auditions it was fun.
and i'm okay with 9th chair now, becuse i AM only a freshman. and i'm 9th out of about 100 upperclassmen in our region. and next year i will TOTALLY kick butt and make all state cuz i will work my butt off and it will be pretty much sweet.
and i'm glad christine made it in. there was nothing that could have been better than seeing her face when she saw the results. she didn't even see what chair she was she was so excited.
God's in control and this is all for the best. and i'm happy.