sense of helplessness...
why is it that I get so bloody angry when I'm helpless?
she's down there, sick as can be... wracking coughs that just sound like her lungs are tearing themselves apart... and I can't do a damn thing to help her... so I just get angry and want to thump things... which, of course, does no one any good and doesn't solve the proplem at all...
I want to go down there and just hold her... keep her close... let her sleep in my arms... knowing that she's safe and loved... and I can't do that because her parents would turn me away at the door... and if they didn't, I can't imagine that Kel would let me that close to her in order to keep me from getting sick...
she knows I love her... she knows that I'd do anything I could to make her better...
I just wish that I could come off less of a self-centered prick when I get frustrated and angry about this...
sure I'm irked about not getting any time with her... but I'm more angry that there isn't a damn thing I can do to get her better... and being male, being unable to fix something (even when it's viral - bronchitis is viral, right?) has a tendency to anger us for no good reason...
Kelly... get better sweetie... I'm sending get-better vibes to you... you already have my love... now if I could just loan you some of my immune system...
gods... if I could only go down there and steal her away from her parents for the weekend... put her up in this house and just TLC her all weekend... *sigh*
she's down there, sick as can be... wracking coughs that just sound like her lungs are tearing themselves apart... and I can't do a damn thing to help her... so I just get angry and want to thump things... which, of course, does no one any good and doesn't solve the proplem at all...
I want to go down there and just hold her... keep her close... let her sleep in my arms... knowing that she's safe and loved... and I can't do that because her parents would turn me away at the door... and if they didn't, I can't imagine that Kel would let me that close to her in order to keep me from getting sick...
she knows I love her... she knows that I'd do anything I could to make her better...
I just wish that I could come off less of a self-centered prick when I get frustrated and angry about this...
sure I'm irked about not getting any time with her... but I'm more angry that there isn't a damn thing I can do to get her better... and being male, being unable to fix something (even when it's viral - bronchitis is viral, right?) has a tendency to anger us for no good reason...
Kelly... get better sweetie... I'm sending get-better vibes to you... you already have my love... now if I could just loan you some of my immune system...
gods... if I could only go down there and steal her away from her parents for the weekend... put her up in this house and just TLC her all weekend... *sigh*