this weekend's trip to Santa Cruz
So, this last weekend I took the guy who I've been dating (Adam) to Santa Cruz and Monterey for what was supposed to be a romantic weekend. We stayed in a really nice hotel in Monterey (The Hyatt); Adam works for a Hyatt in Santa Rosa, so he gets a 60% discount at other Hyatt's. On Friday we drove to Santa Cruz and I took him to Natural Bridges and a drive along the cliffs (which was partially ruined by the stupid surf contest). Then I took him on a drive around Santa cruz showing him some things from my childhood, where I used to live, my elementary school, etc. Then we headed toward the Hotel. I should point out at this point that I have had a difficult time figuring out how I felt about Adam until yesteday (Saturday) morning. So, Friday night we had dinner at the hotel, watched some movies and had a good night. There is also something else that we did that I'm not really in liberty to discuss via livejournal. Lets just say it really helped me to figure out how I felt toward him, although I didn't realize it until the next morning. So, on Saturday morning at breakfast it was almost like a switch flipped in my brain, all of a sudden my feeling were 100% clear. Unfortunately my feeling weren't what I was hoping they would be. I relaized I wasn't attracted to Adam and started realizing more and more throughout the day the things I didn't like about him or I found annoying about him (which actually turned out to be a lot). So for the rest of Saturday and most of Sunday until we got home I was continusly feeling awkward around him and trying to avoid eye contact, holding hands, anything of that nature. It felt way too weird for me to look at him and have him look at me adoringly when I unfortunately didn't feel the same, so I tried to avoid it. I also didn't want to tell himhow I was feeling because I didn't want to ruin the weekend for him even though I pretty much already ruined it for myself. So, now I'm faced with figuring out how and when to tell him without hurting him too much. Any ideas?
We also had an interesting time in Monterey on Saturday when I was playing along having a good time. We attempted to go kayaking out on the bay in Monterey, but couldn't get past the break in the waves; we flipped over like 6 times. Fortunately the place we were renting from provided us with wetsuits. I took that as a major sign that we should not be out kayaking in the ocean, so we decided to give up and managed to get a full refund. Then we went back to the hotel and recovered from our failed kayaking experience, then went and had dinner down on Cannery Row and went and did a ghost tour of old Monterey (which was really cool). Then on Sunday the plan was to drive back to Santa Cruz and go to the boardwalk and maybe the warf. We did go to the boardwalk, but not the warf. The problem was, on the way there I managed to get a speeding ticket on Hwy 1-N in Marina just out of Monterey. The cop clocked me going 81 in 1 65, bad yes, but I'm pretty sure I was going along with traffic. I think what happened was because he was a motorcycle cop I didn't see him right away and everyine esle did and slowed down, so I stood out. When I finally did see him it was too late, he was already hopping on his bike and coming after me. I think on top of me standing out I was also speeding to get home as soon as possible, but things happen and I plan on doing traffic court for it. So, I had a really interesting weekend.
We also had an interesting time in Monterey on Saturday when I was playing along having a good time. We attempted to go kayaking out on the bay in Monterey, but couldn't get past the break in the waves; we flipped over like 6 times. Fortunately the place we were renting from provided us with wetsuits. I took that as a major sign that we should not be out kayaking in the ocean, so we decided to give up and managed to get a full refund. Then we went back to the hotel and recovered from our failed kayaking experience, then went and had dinner down on Cannery Row and went and did a ghost tour of old Monterey (which was really cool). Then on Sunday the plan was to drive back to Santa Cruz and go to the boardwalk and maybe the warf. We did go to the boardwalk, but not the warf. The problem was, on the way there I managed to get a speeding ticket on Hwy 1-N in Marina just out of Monterey. The cop clocked me going 81 in 1 65, bad yes, but I'm pretty sure I was going along with traffic. I think what happened was because he was a motorcycle cop I didn't see him right away and everyine esle did and slowed down, so I stood out. When I finally did see him it was too late, he was already hopping on his bike and coming after me. I think on top of me standing out I was also speeding to get home as soon as possible, but things happen and I plan on doing traffic court for it. So, I had a really interesting weekend.