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Ugh. So my cooperating teacher has left me alone two out of the three days I've been teaching. And while that doesn't totally bother me, it bugs me because I want her feedback on how to fix my lessons etc.
I got a text message this morning at 4:30 from my teacher saying that she wouldn't be coming to school today and that I would have to teach her Spanish 3 class during block one. And while this normally wouldn't bother me, it pissed me off because I had no notice at all to plan and also because I couldnt follow her plans because they were so incomplete that no one could have followed them. I felt horrible that the kids had to listen to me because my "lesson," if you can even call it that, was so insanely off-kilter.
Uh, I'm just starting to wonder if this is truly what I want. I mean, I know that I want to be in a school, doing something with kids, but I'm not sure if teaching is going to be an option....I totally don't feel competent in my abilities and I blame alot of that on KSC. The program here sucks. But whatever, I can't blame all my faults on that. I've really been considering guidance counselling and even administration (but that's probably not likely because I'm not the most assertive person in the world). I'm just feeling a little lost right now, but I'm hoping that things get better in the next couple of weeks. I'm really hoping that alot of this is due to it being my first week. But who the heck knows.
I got a text message this morning at 4:30 from my teacher saying that she wouldn't be coming to school today and that I would have to teach her Spanish 3 class during block one. And while this normally wouldn't bother me, it pissed me off because I had no notice at all to plan and also because I couldnt follow her plans because they were so incomplete that no one could have followed them. I felt horrible that the kids had to listen to me because my "lesson," if you can even call it that, was so insanely off-kilter.
Uh, I'm just starting to wonder if this is truly what I want. I mean, I know that I want to be in a school, doing something with kids, but I'm not sure if teaching is going to be an option....I totally don't feel competent in my abilities and I blame alot of that on KSC. The program here sucks. But whatever, I can't blame all my faults on that. I've really been considering guidance counselling and even administration (but that's probably not likely because I'm not the most assertive person in the world). I'm just feeling a little lost right now, but I'm hoping that things get better in the next couple of weeks. I'm really hoping that alot of this is due to it being my first week. But who the heck knows.