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I think better when I write it out, so that's what I'm going to do (yes, that means this entry's going to probably be, like many of the entries that proceed it, kinda long and kinda boring).
My advisor emailed me today with a cold, hard slap of reality. He brought to my attention various things that sum up to this: if you're not completely and totally committed to going to med-school, then med-school isn't for you. He presents a valid point that's really got me thinking. (Watch out!). The way it plays out, I'm really NOT completely and totally committed to going to med-school. Being a doctor would be great, it's just I'm thinking it may not be worth the work to get there. It's not if I COULD do it, because I definitely could. I just don't know exactly how badly I WANT to do it.
What's bothersome about this is that I need another option, another route to take if that is not the route I will be following. I've been trying to isolate some definite skills I possess and interests I have. I enjoy and am very good at dealing with other people. I'm extremely logical and possess more of a math/science type brain than an english/history/abstract type. I'd like to think of myself as a problem solver. Though I constantly put myself down for it, I'm a pretty decent writer. Now for some interests: History = boring. Science = on the boring side, but I understand it. Politics = meh...they're ok...I kinda like how it's like a game. Economics = sounds kinda boring...then again I think it'd be fun to learn how all that crap works. Business = again, I kinda like how it can be kinda like a game. Art = gag me with a spoon. Music = I'll get back to you at the end of the summer when I'm the best guitarist ever. Religion = no thanks. Women's studies = though it's apparent that I need to work on my understanding of women a little, I don't think that's the kind of understanding to be optained from "women's studies". Journalism = I could write a column...that could be fun...maybe I'll write a column for the paper next year. Education = I could teach. I don't know what, but I could teach. I'm good at explaining (most) things. Sports = I do believe I'm not learned enough in any sport to hope to rely on it as a career at this point in my life.
I wish this was as easy as it was when I was little. "Now, sonny, what do you want to be when you grow up?" "I want to be a astrosnot!" "You mean an astronaut?" "Yep! A astrosnot! I'd fly around in space like Buzz Lightyear and shot Zurg with my lasers, like, 'zap zap zap! Die, evil Zurg! I a'gonna kill you, you meaniehead! zap zap zap!' AND THEN I'll go to the moon! AND THEN I'll go to the sun! AND THEN I'll come back and be a hero! Chris the astrosnot SUPERHERO!"
...Oh if only it was that easy again...
I've also decided, and by me I mean my mom, to be less negative all the time. I realize it's a problem and I'm sure all of you realize it's a problem and I'm going to make a genuine and concerted effort to be more positive about things - especially about myself.
I guess that's about it...Thanks again, LJ for letting me think!
My advisor emailed me today with a cold, hard slap of reality. He brought to my attention various things that sum up to this: if you're not completely and totally committed to going to med-school, then med-school isn't for you. He presents a valid point that's really got me thinking. (Watch out!). The way it plays out, I'm really NOT completely and totally committed to going to med-school. Being a doctor would be great, it's just I'm thinking it may not be worth the work to get there. It's not if I COULD do it, because I definitely could. I just don't know exactly how badly I WANT to do it.
What's bothersome about this is that I need another option, another route to take if that is not the route I will be following. I've been trying to isolate some definite skills I possess and interests I have. I enjoy and am very good at dealing with other people. I'm extremely logical and possess more of a math/science type brain than an english/history/abstract type. I'd like to think of myself as a problem solver. Though I constantly put myself down for it, I'm a pretty decent writer. Now for some interests: History = boring. Science = on the boring side, but I understand it. Politics = meh...they're ok...I kinda like how it's like a game. Economics = sounds kinda boring...then again I think it'd be fun to learn how all that crap works. Business = again, I kinda like how it can be kinda like a game. Art = gag me with a spoon. Music = I'll get back to you at the end of the summer when I'm the best guitarist ever. Religion = no thanks. Women's studies = though it's apparent that I need to work on my understanding of women a little, I don't think that's the kind of understanding to be optained from "women's studies". Journalism = I could write a column...that could be fun...maybe I'll write a column for the paper next year. Education = I could teach. I don't know what, but I could teach. I'm good at explaining (most) things. Sports = I do believe I'm not learned enough in any sport to hope to rely on it as a career at this point in my life.
I wish this was as easy as it was when I was little. "Now, sonny, what do you want to be when you grow up?" "I want to be a astrosnot!" "You mean an astronaut?" "Yep! A astrosnot! I'd fly around in space like Buzz Lightyear and shot Zurg with my lasers, like, 'zap zap zap! Die, evil Zurg! I a'gonna kill you, you meaniehead! zap zap zap!' AND THEN I'll go to the moon! AND THEN I'll go to the sun! AND THEN I'll come back and be a hero! Chris the astrosnot SUPERHERO!"
...Oh if only it was that easy again...
I've also decided, and by me I mean my mom, to be less negative all the time. I realize it's a problem and I'm sure all of you realize it's a problem and I'm going to make a genuine and concerted effort to be more positive about things - especially about myself.
I guess that's about it...Thanks again, LJ for letting me think!