okay here it is
so i have a problem.
i suffer from high stress and have enough symptoms to be characterized as a person with mild or moderate anxiety. sad isn't it.
now the sad part is that, this is not a self diagnosis. i was actually told by some counselors and my advisors that they had concerns and actually had to sit through meetings being told that i could suffer greatly and this could all be self destructing in the end.
i seriously just want to crawl in a hole and cry till i can't feel any more emotion.
its not that i need to be loved. because i am. i just wish that the stressors in my life weren't tearing what i am, apart.
this sucks. on top of that. my mom actually asked me if i wanted to start seeing a psychiatrist. and that if i needed to be prescribed some sort of medication for my anxiety and mild depression, then we can accept that.
holy shit. and everyone who knows ME knows that im a firm believer that medication is a crock of shit. this is the same girl that will grit her teeth through a migrane before she even touches a bottle of asprin.
man i fucking hate this. my advisors actually gave me the option of just going home for the semester and being dismissed on personal/health issues and being able to get a full refund on my tuition and such. but i know that i wont do that.
all i know is i dont want to be here. im sick of this stupid routine already. i know, its been 3 days but fuck if i care, i fucking took summer classes. i was JUST here not too long ago.
the people suck, the cliques suck, the traffic sucks, the drivers suck, the parking is hell, the classes or just TOO full, and fuck, i just hate my life up here honestly. i feel so a.d.d. when it comes to my surroundings. like i can't focus becuase there's so much useless shit going on around me. i denno.
fuck life right now. just fuck it.
<3
i suffer from high stress and have enough symptoms to be characterized as a person with mild or moderate anxiety. sad isn't it.
now the sad part is that, this is not a self diagnosis. i was actually told by some counselors and my advisors that they had concerns and actually had to sit through meetings being told that i could suffer greatly and this could all be self destructing in the end.
i seriously just want to crawl in a hole and cry till i can't feel any more emotion.
its not that i need to be loved. because i am. i just wish that the stressors in my life weren't tearing what i am, apart.
this sucks. on top of that. my mom actually asked me if i wanted to start seeing a psychiatrist. and that if i needed to be prescribed some sort of medication for my anxiety and mild depression, then we can accept that.
holy shit. and everyone who knows ME knows that im a firm believer that medication is a crock of shit. this is the same girl that will grit her teeth through a migrane before she even touches a bottle of asprin.
man i fucking hate this. my advisors actually gave me the option of just going home for the semester and being dismissed on personal/health issues and being able to get a full refund on my tuition and such. but i know that i wont do that.
all i know is i dont want to be here. im sick of this stupid routine already. i know, its been 3 days but fuck if i care, i fucking took summer classes. i was JUST here not too long ago.
the people suck, the cliques suck, the traffic sucks, the drivers suck, the parking is hell, the classes or just TOO full, and fuck, i just hate my life up here honestly. i feel so a.d.d. when it comes to my surroundings. like i can't focus becuase there's so much useless shit going on around me. i denno.
fuck life right now. just fuck it.
<3