i only want you to be with me.
I guess I should start this thing sometime, I have had a diary on TOD forever but it's just not the same anymore, full of teeny boppers with their life crisis of what colour to dye their hair and whether or not to call their boyfriend. It just gets tiring hearing the same thing day in and day out...and it got tiring writing the same thing all the time, so maybe this will be a fresh start.
Things right now are weird, my boyfriends going through a lot of shit but i can't really be there because of his mother, she blames me and it's kind of hard to prove it's not all my fault..and you know when someone tells you something is your fault and you start to truly believe it? But why she thinks i would bring this upon him is beyond me and its hurting me not to even be able to drive over there and give him a hug for fear of her vicious mouth. Maybe things are getting a little too complicated!
I am meant to be going to america in about 5 weeks for 4 months, meaning i should probably know where i'm going by now...but no chance, i am doing this camp america program where they basically pay for you to go over and work on a summer camp then you can go off and travel before uni, it's all been cool up to now when i'm meant to be going immininently and have no info. I'm still excited just worried a little too now.
I guess as this was my first entry i should have done some kind of introduction, but i don't believe in them, you learn about a person gradually and no piece a writing will ever do them justice. Plus this diary is for me...
Things right now are weird, my boyfriends going through a lot of shit but i can't really be there because of his mother, she blames me and it's kind of hard to prove it's not all my fault..and you know when someone tells you something is your fault and you start to truly believe it? But why she thinks i would bring this upon him is beyond me and its hurting me not to even be able to drive over there and give him a hug for fear of her vicious mouth. Maybe things are getting a little too complicated!
I am meant to be going to america in about 5 weeks for 4 months, meaning i should probably know where i'm going by now...but no chance, i am doing this camp america program where they basically pay for you to go over and work on a summer camp then you can go off and travel before uni, it's all been cool up to now when i'm meant to be going immininently and have no info. I'm still excited just worried a little too now.
I guess as this was my first entry i should have done some kind of introduction, but i don't believe in them, you learn about a person gradually and no piece a writing will ever do them justice. Plus this diary is for me...