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I hate sitting around and waiting. And waiting for nothing because I know there isn't anything to do. I can't stand being idle...sitting around while my life passes me by makes my skin crawl.
I feel like all I have done this summer is wait. Wait for Alaster to get off work. Wait until I can go to Tallahassee. Wait until I can finally get back to school. Wait until Alaster's parents decide he can see me. Wait until I can just go to sleep because I don't want to be awake doing nothing. Wait for my shift at work to end.
It's just been such a shitty summer, the shittiest I've had actually, and I really don't like the fact that it isn't even July yet.
I'm really trying to be more optimistic. I've even compiled a list in my head for things to do when I have a day off. But I don't have many days off. I try to keep my list of pet peeves to a minimum. And there aren't really that many things that bother me a lot, but the things that do really, really get to me to the point where feel like I am going to explode.
Waiting for people to call is one of them. Waiting for people in general is one of them. Because waiting on someone makes me feel so pathetic, so out of control. Like my life depends on your one phone call because I know I don't have anything else to do.
I'm bitching. Whatever.
I feel like all I have done this summer is wait. Wait for Alaster to get off work. Wait until I can go to Tallahassee. Wait until I can finally get back to school. Wait until Alaster's parents decide he can see me. Wait until I can just go to sleep because I don't want to be awake doing nothing. Wait for my shift at work to end.
It's just been such a shitty summer, the shittiest I've had actually, and I really don't like the fact that it isn't even July yet.
I'm really trying to be more optimistic. I've even compiled a list in my head for things to do when I have a day off. But I don't have many days off. I try to keep my list of pet peeves to a minimum. And there aren't really that many things that bother me a lot, but the things that do really, really get to me to the point where feel like I am going to explode.
Waiting for people to call is one of them. Waiting for people in general is one of them. Because waiting on someone makes me feel so pathetic, so out of control. Like my life depends on your one phone call because I know I don't have anything else to do.
I'm bitching. Whatever.