I hope you had the time of your life.

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Wow. I was reading through the journals I kept in high school and it's amazing at how little I have changed. So many of my anxious thoughts and insecurities remain with me, three years or so later. It's funny how I rambled about being stressed in high school. High school. If there's ever a time not to be stressed, it's high school. Good thing I completely missed that memo. I get on my sister's case for slacking off, but I could have slacked off a hell of a lot more and still gotten where I am today. I should have stayed home more, studied less and worried less. But it's just my nature and I suppose I couldn't help it. It's just funny to read about silly trials and tribulations from high school and it makes me feel a hint of pride that I am growing up in to a much better person. I think about how much I grew up between February of my senior year and that August when I left everything and everyone behind for Florida State.

What a great decision. Probably the biggest and scariest decision of my life but it was worth it and I would recommend it to everyone. I love that I learned how to take chances and be less afraid of, well, life. And although I am still struggling today at least I got away and started a new life with new people somewhere else.

It's just liberating to know that ultimately you control your own life and no one can tell you otherwise. I just want to be happy, have a lot of money and take chances. Yes, that about sums it all up.