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I don't particularly like to talk about my family history. It's a little sordid. But then in a family full of daemons, what exactly do you expect?
First off, I just have to say that I didn't originally look like this. No, I was pretty fucking ugly. Oh yeah, I was. It didn't take long for me to figure out that my look? Wasn't going to get me anywhere. So I started changing young and I've changed over the years but I've pretty much settled on this. Oh, every so often I'll wiggle my nose and shape it differently, but for the most part, what you see is what you're likely to see for awhile.
When I was really young, my mother was there all the time. She was the mom that wanted to be your friend, even when she had to reprimand, you know? She was never very good at that, I mean, she is Discord, what exactly was she going to do? Smack us down for doing something good? And yeah, I was right in the middle of ten plus kids, but I still felt loved. Ate was there when Mom wasn't, so I got attention most of the time. Mostly. You still get lost when you're in the middle. No matter how hard people try.
Then, Mom found Apollo. And she tried to still be there. She really did. But she just wasn't. That was right around the time that Ate left for Dite's, or when she came back? I don't know it gets kinda hazy there. Either way, Ate wasn't around as much. After Mom had Elpis, she and Apollo started to fight a lot. You know the fighting that happens behind doors? The kind you aren't supposed to know about but do anyway? Yeah, that kind. They did that for awhile, then broke up. Mom was pretty devastated. I think that's when she started to lose it. But it wasn't until after the box that she completely lost it.
Oh, the box. You don't know about the box? You know the story, a special box given to that chick named Pandora? She opens it, releases all the little evil goodies in the world and leaves hope in? Yeah, I was one of those little evil goodies. Zeus stuffed us in there and let me tell, if you think it's hard to live with ten plus brothers and sisters out side a tiny ass box? Try doing it IN a tiny ass box. Not fun. This sardine can. A sardine can filled with Strife. I love my brother, but he smells. Anyway, it didn't take us long to get out, Pandora was a mortal after all, but once we were released, Mom just slept all the time, Ate was kicked off the mountain and spent her time running around looking for Elpis and I was on my own again. That's about the time Uncle Moros showed up and took me down to the Underworld for the first time. Oh MAN that was fucking awesome. He only paid attention to ME and he showed me everything. He was the one that took me to the mortal plane to ply my trade for the first time. It was amazing. I never felt so loved, so completely looked after before that.
I stayed on Olympus for a little while after that, but there really wasn't anything there for me after Ate left. So I struck out on my own. The mortal world was so much fun and especially after the Americas were found? That was like my gold mine. All those indigenous people being killed off for no reason? Then all the religious murders and oh my gods, the witch hunts. Those still give me shivers.
I found whiskey, then motorcycles, and the bikers that ride them and I've been pretty content with my life. I don't have to fight for attention any more. The attention comes to me. The love comes to me. I don't have to beg for anything. I ask nicely and it all falls into my lap. How awesome a life is that? Mortals will never have it that good.
I don't particularly like to talk about my family history. It's a little sordid. But then in a family full of daemons, what exactly do you expect?
First off, I just have to say that I didn't originally look like this. No, I was pretty fucking ugly. Oh yeah, I was. It didn't take long for me to figure out that my look? Wasn't going to get me anywhere. So I started changing young and I've changed over the years but I've pretty much settled on this. Oh, every so often I'll wiggle my nose and shape it differently, but for the most part, what you see is what you're likely to see for awhile.
When I was really young, my mother was there all the time. She was the mom that wanted to be your friend, even when she had to reprimand, you know? She was never very good at that, I mean, she is Discord, what exactly was she going to do? Smack us down for doing something good? And yeah, I was right in the middle of ten plus kids, but I still felt loved. Ate was there when Mom wasn't, so I got attention most of the time. Mostly. You still get lost when you're in the middle. No matter how hard people try.
Then, Mom found Apollo. And she tried to still be there. She really did. But she just wasn't. That was right around the time that Ate left for Dite's, or when she came back? I don't know it gets kinda hazy there. Either way, Ate wasn't around as much. After Mom had Elpis, she and Apollo started to fight a lot. You know the fighting that happens behind doors? The kind you aren't supposed to know about but do anyway? Yeah, that kind. They did that for awhile, then broke up. Mom was pretty devastated. I think that's when she started to lose it. But it wasn't until after the box that she completely lost it.
Oh, the box. You don't know about the box? You know the story, a special box given to that chick named Pandora? She opens it, releases all the little evil goodies in the world and leaves hope in? Yeah, I was one of those little evil goodies. Zeus stuffed us in there and let me tell, if you think it's hard to live with ten plus brothers and sisters out side a tiny ass box? Try doing it IN a tiny ass box. Not fun. This sardine can. A sardine can filled with Strife. I love my brother, but he smells. Anyway, it didn't take us long to get out, Pandora was a mortal after all, but once we were released, Mom just slept all the time, Ate was kicked off the mountain and spent her time running around looking for Elpis and I was on my own again. That's about the time Uncle Moros showed up and took me down to the Underworld for the first time. Oh MAN that was fucking awesome. He only paid attention to ME and he showed me everything. He was the one that took me to the mortal plane to ply my trade for the first time. It was amazing. I never felt so loved, so completely looked after before that.
I stayed on Olympus for a little while after that, but there really wasn't anything there for me after Ate left. So I struck out on my own. The mortal world was so much fun and especially after the Americas were found? That was like my gold mine. All those indigenous people being killed off for no reason? Then all the religious murders and oh my gods, the witch hunts. Those still give me shivers.
I found whiskey, then motorcycles, and the bikers that ride them and I've been pretty content with my life. I don't have to fight for attention any more. The attention comes to me. The love comes to me. I don't have to beg for anything. I ask nicely and it all falls into my lap. How awesome a life is that? Mortals will never have it that good.