Know Thyself. Everything in Moderation

Jul 12, 2009 01:01

Know thyself. Everything in moderation.

I first heard those two expressions in the winter of 2004, my junior year at Hope. Prof. Agheana, threw them at us a few times when he was telling us some stories. I immediately latched onto them - they resonated with me and made a whole lot of sense to me.

Especially the second one, "everything in moderation". People are so extreme; they either hate what's going on or they love it, they're never just taking it for what it is and rolling with it. They're completely for something or completely against it, and they tell you you're supposed to pick a side. Bah! I suppose if you look at history, you'd find that it's written that way. All of history is. This group dominated those poor saps in the other group, etc.

Anyway, I'd say that I regularly think of this saying, "everything in moderation", and find that I am indeed moderately approaching most aspects of my life. It's a nice, level, safe approach. Much thought goes into decisions, because it's worth it to consider alternate takes on, say, where I should move for a job, or what I'm going to do this next weekend, etc.

Here's where I'm trying to get with putting this into words. I should also make a note, before I get going on this, that I'm currently feeling slightly unbalanced, a little lonely, sort of bored, (you know, that whole mix of emotions that pop up sometimes when it's been you, yourself, and your brain for a whole day), so this for sure is affecting my thoughts. But anyways, I wonder if this "everything in moderation" method of approaching life that I've been using for so many years now is actually hindering what I could be doing. Or holding me back.

I feel good about being able to keep myself level-headed about so many things that go on in daily life, but it feels like things just aren't as exciting as they once were. I'm not as exciting as I once was. Am I just hiding within this range of mid-level emotions as a means of avoiding the hurt of a letdown? It has sucked in the past when there's something that hurts emotionally, but it sort of sucks to not even let myself get out of these neutral emotions. Maybe I should let myself be more extreme again? You don't get to the joys of life without the risk of heartache, yeah?

It's good to follow one's brain; it's also good to follow one's heart.

Does anybody else feel this?
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